15 January 2013
Every word I read from you is making me feel guilt.
You want me out of your life yet here you are in my mind, in my thoughts, infront of me.
Always there. Preventing me.
I want to write my feelings on here because it's the place I know best and where I feel I can express myself.
Although, I'm not sure I can do that any longer without feeling like you're constantly there.
Watching over, analysing each and every word.
Maybe it's just me being my paranoid anxious self but either way I'm thinking this is unfair.
I shouldn't feel like I'm battling a war when we apparently have nothing left to fight for?
I know you'll read this, cause you always do. It seems to be the only way you want to 'communicate' anymore.
I don't know what it is exactly that I'm trying to say, just don't take offence and I'm not saying go away...
Right now you show the feelings that you want me to see, deep down you know it's destroying me.
You either want me or you don't. There is no in-between. Either is fine with me, I'll have to deal with both it's clear.
But if its the latter then...
Then this whole 'thing' is pointless and bitter.
You Can't Have Your Cake And Eat It Too. • Opuss № I