Finger My Fingers - Sneak Peak 2

This is another extract from my novel - hope you enjoy x

Lucy paced the room, she wasn’t sure when Matt would come home but she knew she wanted to be up and awake when he did. Looking at her watch she could see that it was already past midnight and she could be in for a long wait. The whole drive home Richard and Abbie had tried to distract her and help her think clearly about what she needed to say and do. But she hadn’t been listening. The whole journey she just felt the anger grow inside her. How could he have done this to her? Lucy sat down on the sofa and rested her head in her hands. She had tried to call Matt already to find out when he would be home but it had gone straight to voicemail and she threw her phone across the room in a fit of range as she knew why it was off. He was with her. She couldn’t get her head around any of it. He always seemed so happy to see her. he always said he was in love with her. was any of it true? She didn’t know anymore. She wasn’t really sure of anything. The past three years she had spent with a man who she loved and was sure loved her back, but now it seemed like none of this was true anymore.

Hours passed and Matt still wasn’t home. It was nearly 3am and Lucy was struggling to stay awake. With each seconf that passed she could feel the anger growing inside her. She wanted to shout and cry and scream all at the same time but knew she had to keep her composer until he was here. She looked at her watch for the hundredth time that night when suddenly she heard the key twist in the lock. Through the darkness she could hear Matt slip off his shoes and put down his things and creep quietly into the apartment. In that moment she wished she had never given him a key. If she had never given him a key he would of never have slowly moved in and then she would never have found all of that stuff from her. Suddenly the room filled with light and Matt jumped in surprise to see Lucy sat on the sofa.

“Jesus Lucy what are you still doing up? Are you ok? Have you been crying?” Matt walked across the room to come and sit next to Lucy but she got up and walked over to the French doors and stared out into the garden, focusing on the dying apple tree. It was funny how she had live here for so long and she had never noticed that the tree was dying. “Lucy what’s happened?” Matt asked concern in his voice. His voice so soft and caring made her feel sick and tears rolled down her face as she turned around to face him.

“I know Matt. I know everything” she said not looking at him, just wiping away the tears.

“You know what? Lucy seriously I have no idea what you’re going on about?” Matt had gotten up and was stood in front of her now reaching for her.

“Don’t treat me like a child Matt. I know about Zoe, I know you’re having an affair.” Lucy looked up at his and his expression confirmed everything she had thought was true. “I don’t get it Matt? I thought you were happy? I thought you loved me?”

“oh Lucy I do I do love you just. I met Zoe and we just clicked and…I’m so sorry.” He dropped down into the chair and put his head in his hands.

“how long has it been going on?” Lucy asked her voice was calm and cold,

“Lucy please do we have to?”

“you are having an affair Matt! I think I at least have the right to know what the fuck has been going on!” lucy felt her blood boil and she had to turn away in order to control her rage.

“just over a year, I tried to end it with her on so many occasion but I just couldn’t.”

“And that’ supposed to make me feel better? You tried to end it so it’s all ok?! Jesus Christ matt! We have been together for three years. Three fucking years did that mean nothing to you?!” Matt was silent she wanted him to stand up and tell her that it was all wrong and that he loved her and this women was nothing but she knew that wasn’t the case.

“I’m sorry ok; I never meant to hurt you. I didn’t plan for any of this to happen. i do still love you Lucy.”

“HOW DARE YOU!!!! HOW FUCKING DARE YOU!” Lucy screamed “you have an affair for a year a fucking year and you say you didn’t want to hurt me?”

“Lucy calm down.” Matt said standing up and putting his hands on her arms. Lucy flinched at his gentle touch and reached up and slapped him across the face.

“Get out matt.”

“Lucy please let’s talk about this i…”

“Get out! GET OUT GET OUT GET OUTTT!!!” Lucy screamed through her sobs. She walked away to face the French windows again and she heard Matt’s footsteps across the floor and then she heard the front door slam shut. Once again all was calm and silent. No one would have known anything had just happened if it wasn’t for Lucy sobs. She feel to the floor in a heep and cried. Not just tears but giant painful sobs from the pit of the stomach as she slowly felt her heart break into a thousand tiny pieces.