19 February 2013
I don't really used this anymore. Not the my love d writing has died. I jut don't have the time to post 12 times a day to get the sort of recognition I am After. Anyway this post isn't about my thoughts on the flaws of opuss. I have a lot going on at the moment and I needed to vent. Not for praise or sympathy. Simply because if I don't get it out ill go mad and there is no where else I can write without being bombarded with a million questions from a million mosey people all wanting to know my business.
my first rant is about "friends". One is a compulsive liar but her heart is in the right place. She simply tells you what she thinks she wants to hear. but she does that to everyone. so no one knows the truth and everyone thinks she is on there side when no on really knows. Another used to be like a sister to me, until she got a new boyfriend and it all changed as her boyfriend threatened to kill mine and now there is an elephant in the room that she refuses to talk about . I could deal with the hatred between our partners and the fact that my boyfriend won't go anywhere he is if she was the same girl. But she isn't. She doesn't look the same, act the same, talk the same. She is a Different person a person who quite frankly I don't like. Then you have all my other friends who as a whole aren't flawed. Just they neglect me. I always text and phone and make the effort to see them And sometimes I wonder if I stopped - would our friendship stop too?
Guess I'm just feeling a little neglected and taken for granted. I don't mid being "the super friend" but every now and again I'd like someone else to wear the cape and make me feel special.
Work is so dull. Putting pins in my eyes is more appealing then going to work. I know I am smart and talented and I know I'm worth more then my 18k a year call centre job but without the experience or qualifications trying to convince anyone else that is like fighting a loosing battle. I don't care if I don't have a career and I don't care if I'm not earning mega bucks. I'd just like to go to work and no dread it.
My boyfriend is having his own problems at the moment and trying to get anything out of him Is like getting blood from a stone. I jut want go help but how can I when e Wong talk go me?
Meh... So fed up. I know I am lucky and my life is better then so many other people's out there but I just wanted to vent.
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