2 years

i look up
and there you are
ray of sunshine
beaming smile across your face
sickening
you force me to fall into your arms
i get it
you're trying to be affectionate and friendly
but tell me honestly
how that brings us closer
have you ever thought of the fact
that i don't wanna hug you back?
i don't need you to say hi to me every time you see me
we will
never be as close
as we were
2 years ago
2 years ago
we were
best
friends
but soon
i saw how you make things go your way
i saw how controlling you became
i saw how conceited you could ever be
and you knew
how horrible
you treated me
yet
you continued
and i would secretly hate you
so
much
but i wouldn't dare speak up
it was terrifying
my own friend
acting like she were my mom
tell me how much more smarter you are than me
just because you're older than me
by a couple of months
having my own friend treat me like a slave
in a way
it took me 2 years
to speak up
i hated who you became
and i hated the way i was treated
and it took me 2 years
2 years of this fake friendship
yes we actually were close
and it was sincere
but it wasn't 100%
because i couldn't be 100% honest with you
stop
acting
i won't stop
pretending
you don't know
everything
about me
i don't tell you
anything
anymore
so just think about it
sometimes
i don't want a hug,
and i don't need to repeat myself.