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Resilience Repeated

Right now, I'm so gone
All my days seem so long
And I don't know if
I can hold it together...

The trust has been broken
My eyes are now open
There are ties which
I know I must sever

Such pain in my head
My body half dead
Endless tears which
I can't stop from flowing

Frustration, despair
Almost too much to bear
And the anger inside
Just keeps growing

Have you ever been played?
Cheated on and betrayed?
By someone you relied on and
Trusted?

Have you felt inner sickness
When you finally witnessed
Their deceit-and now you're
Disgusted?

I'm churning inside
Twisted thoughts I can't hide
I won't rest until there's
Retribution

But I realise when I'm calm
That in wishing them harm
Revenge is perhaps not the
Solution

So time yet for payback
I've got to get back on track
I can't delay another moment longer

And I'll get through this I'm sure
Because I've been here before
And though I'm hurt
It will just make me

Stronger.

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Leigh 2012

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Comments & Feedback (30)

Great write. I hope it works out for you in the end😔

Very well written Leigh, strong. Agree with @eddie12309 really hope you pull thru hun. 👍❤😘❤😥

@eddie12309 @leelee101 Thank you both. Week from hell, but I'm still standing! Worse to come, but it'll be

🙏 are they getting investigated? Great words, karma is a bitch 👍

@eddie12309 @leelee101 Week from hell, but I'm still standing! Worse to come, but it'll be ok....I'm telling myself that a LOT. Thanks both for your supportive comments-it means a lot😌x

@Burrfoot More & more shite coming to light over last few days. We've gotta get them to sign over company before bank foreclose & the we can attempt to rebuild it. Once they've done that, we can look into any 'mis-management' issues separately. Can't risk doing it before, otherwise they'll block the takeover & force us into administration. Gonna be a shitty few weeks, but I'm hopeful. Expect several 'Revenge' type postings!!😡 Thanks for your comment😘

@Fly10 positive thoughts flying your way 💓

@Fly10 by Christ you've had a time. Stay strong Leigh, pull thru it all. Always around should you need. 👍❤😘

You got it - stay strong! 💚✊✨ I'm sure you'll get there.

@naaviie Thank you lady x

Awww big hugs my sweet...💪💪💪💪....hope all goes well Hun...must be sickening for you right now...that horrid twisting sense of sickness is just horrid, I hope it's not making you feel too ill?....I've felt like this and I couldn't eat or sleep...just awful....I'll be thinking of you lovely lady❤💚❤💚

I had major surgery in Feb & lost a lot of weight-can't afford to lose more so stacking up on the carbs! It is a HORRIBLE time, but trying to stay focused on task in hand & not let the bastards grind me down! It'll work out...it's got to😌 Thanks for supportive comments lovely lady-means SO much x😌😘

Hope everything works out for you! I know the feeling though from a different source, like you said only makes you stronger 😘😘💙💙✊✊

@MrAlex Definitely💪 Goota

@MrAlex Definitely 💪 Gotta look at the (few) positives of the situation! 😌😘

It's a tough ride for you, and 'not fair'. Life never is. I hope you ride above this and keep your strength, and keep up the poetry, we need you here! (Very selfish I know)

@Nom I intend to keep writing-it's a great release. Whether what I write is any good in my current state of mind, we'll have to see! And as a friend said when we discussed the twists & turns of life 'Who said anything about fair?' And she's right, that was never actually mentioned in the bargain with the Big Man was it? Really appreciate your comments & support my friend😌x

@Fly10 everything you write is good! Just some things are better! ;) writing truly is a great release, keep at it. One day you'll look back at this time, settled down once more...

@Burrfoot I've commented on your last couple of pieces, & it's showing in my feed that you've responded....but when I pull up your post, my comments have disappeared? Just wondered whether you're receiving them? If you're reading & then deleting (for perhaps obvious reasons) let me know, & I'll just 'like' instead! 😉😘

@Fly10 I've only deleted comments from xfiles and will sleep on whether or not to delete the poem. I replied saying that xfiles is inspired by someone posting about a friend that died in childbirth due to cancer.. Too close to home & I don't believe a word which makes me sick and also feel bad for not believing. Same author has some bizarre posts prior to that.. Makes me want to stop reading open feed till all this blows over, I just see a horrible pattern emerging between several posters of a certain age 😢😡

@Burrfoot That makes sense-your reply must have been deleted prior to me reading it, hence why it showed on my feed. I totally agree with what you say & how you feel. It's so difficult to broach as impossible to prove anything & I'm sure miraculous recoveries will abound in some cases. Having had a hysterectomy at 32 for the very same reasons, it's sickening me to read the posts concerned (&the responses in some cases?) I've hardly bothered since yesterday as it makes me angry, which is something I don't want to be with all the other shit I've got going on. I just want to come on here to write & read honest, beautiful & original words. Pissed off 😠

@Fly10 totally.. Last night/this morning it really got to me and hardly slept about the other one then got my head round it, moved on then read the new one!! Fk it. Just gonna carry on 😡😠😣😞😒😔😏😌😊

@Burrfoot That's all we can do at the moment, write & try to ignore it. Very hard when I'm getting endless reposts & 'tribute' writes mind you. Hopefully the truth will show itself in one shape or form. Keep smiling eh? x

Indeedy 👍g'night n thanks

A awesome write Leigh!! Did I miss something hun? Lawsuits? Mismanagement?? Hope you are ok babes xx

Hope you're ok hun. Whatever happens make sure you take care of yourself 😌

@smellyfingers Shit, shit, shit week.....but I'm still standing😉

@Vicki Thanks Vicki. I've not had a great week, but in comparison to what you're going through, it was a walk in the park. I hope you're bearing up lady-your writing has been raw & wonderful 😌x

@Fly10 I'm doing ok surprisingly, I had a few days of moping but pulled myself together and got on with things 😊 thanks for the compliment though hun 😚

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