not anymore.

i was the leader of this relationship, even though i didn't say much. my boyfriend thought things were going smooth and well and he couldn't see how i felt. unfortunately, i had become unfaithful because for some reason, i still had this on going crush on my boyfriends' best friend. and as a bonus, i started picking out my boyfriends' flaws and made a decision that he was too sweet. at first it was like, aren't boyfriends supposed to be like that? they do that to impress the girl, it isn't too much. well, i thought it was. and boy, was i wrong. but me liking his best friend was probably the only right thing. i grabbed my phone and sketched out a text, a breaking up with you text. i don't even remember what it said. but i remember i tried to say it nicely. then again, breaking up with someone nicely isn't possible. because, the person on the other side certainly doesn't feel nice. and even though you may seem like you did the right thing, the guilt picks at you sooner or later. i learned that the hard way. if you really liked that person, strange things happen. jealousy, regret. i rejected my own boyfriend, then dumped him for a dumb reason and a somewhat relevant reason. yeah, i WAS the leader of this relationship.