Moetry

The man I once was

I am not the man I thought I was
Just a shell an empty farce
Turned insecurities into funny masks
Never lived up to any task

It took to loose what I could bare to not
It took my soul to suffer and rot
It took attachment to something real
All it took was for me to feel

Hidden away from facing head on
Thought I could deal with problems begone
But dealing with pain is what makes us grow
Something which before I didn't know

Within this shell sits a child inside
With one difference to bear in mind
No longer scared or willing to hide
To become a man before high tide

I know that you and I can never be
As long as this man a child be
As yet not differed from what you knew
But for the first time on a road anew

Hope exists it'll never die
My heart forgets not, days gone by
To one day come across again
Love of life, my fair maiden

By then be a man I am
the man that I know I can
Thyself be true and firm I stand
The man to which you loved I am

For now adieu till resolution set
True to myself, parameters met
Hopeful Discoveries of self beget,
Something undiscovered as of yet

Empty words are words of show
Only actions comes to blows
And so lonely road must I take
To realise the mistakes I make

And when I am whole in search I'll come
To see if the one is still the one
If not too late, pray not too late
To mine love, I'll subjugate

If love returned oh joyous day
If not my heart will learn to stay
For my own man I would have become
My heart will not set with the setting sun