Welcome To Hell

The dark wood line on the horizon
Gleams of a deep scarlet red.
The fog begins to part,
Depressing thoughts rummage my head.

Why do I try?
I never succeed.
All I want is to die
And never to be

Awakened again.
I've begged and I've pleed
For forgiveness, for courage
For the strength not to bleed.

But I've tried for too long,
My prayers were ignored.
My soul won't reach heaven.
Were they even heard?

The scars of failure
Mar my arms.
Attempts at my life,
For its always too hard

Or maybe I'm weak
And those scars are the proof.
Who would ever want me?
A gravelly voice whispers
"I do."

I turn around, salty years of my own.
"I just want to leave this fucked up place I call home."

"I can help, darling girl,
Let me explain.
Just simply take my hand
And I'll end all your pain.

I'm from a place you don't know,
But it's so far away.
Understand you can't come back,
Once you're mine, mine you stay."

I try to meet his eyes,
But his black cloak hides them well.
A dark shadow for a face,
My escape from myself.

"I want to go."
I whisper quietly.
He says "Take my hand
And forever mine you'll be.

But don't forget the deal,
Once you're mine, you're mine forever
I can't bring you back
I can't return you, not ever.

"I don't care! Take me now!"
And I grab his velvet hand.
Suddenly falling away
Into my Promised Land.

I land quite painfully,
Looking around at the land into which I fell.
Terror then strikes when I see
A sign
Reading
Welcome
To
Hell.