6 January 2013
Hi Lj...well it's still Lynn for now? You haven't changed yet!
I'm not quite sure how to start this. There's so much that's about to happen in the next 8 weeks and you're not prepared. Remember Christmas, when you finally felt at peace with everything? It's about to be ruined, I'm sorry that it doesn't work out. It wasn't really sorted, I guess you got excited in the hopes that somehow it could work.
So you and Mark...listen he's lying to you, well for now he's just hiding things from you. I guess that honesty isn't always the best policy to some people. He's gonna get so angry, so angry at you. He will mentally destroy and leave you emotionally fragile. The man you once knew doesn't exist anymore, don't bother trying to save this. Mum was right (the only time I'll ever say those words) get your stuff and get out as soon as possible. In two weeks you'll find out the extent of his deceit and it's only downhill from there.
Don't bother crying, enjoy Liverpool and the new experiences. Whatever she means to him, it's not worth you stressing over. If he could go to that extent, then all the sympathy has to go out the window. You deserve happiness, please never doubt that. I know you're feeling on edge right now, you're just at the beginning of the end.
As for Irish, I wish I could explain what's about to happen with him. It's complicated and maybe you could spare the heartache from now by walking away. I know it sounds crazy but you're falling for him. You just haven't realised it yet *shakes head*. So okay, don't walk away but trust me to hold on, he's gonna be the best thing of 2012. No matter what happens, he's really a dick, but a loving one!
Happy belated new year. Nothing has changed right? Please stop crying and get some sleep, the 9th is only a few days away. I'd tell you what happens but it's rare that you're surprised so trust me!
I love you, despite your craziness!
Take care,
Lj x
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