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So hold me close Just one more time And kiss me deep For one last moment Wipe my tears away As you make me smile This dream of mine Is never going to last
Kiss me like you This is it Miss me like you Maybe more Own me like you The hope grows Want me like you For forever Crave me like you Together lies Posses me like you …
This fantasy clings to my reality I wish to see not dream it If I die forever will I wake up Into the fantasy I long to be in
Playing with fire I'm gonna get burned Addicted to you This punishment earned
We fell in love. He broke my heart. I never recovered Time for a fresh start.
Caress my soul with words Own me whole with a whisper Mould me into perfection Push me closer to the abyss Lie with me in the moonlight Echoes of passion set free This feeling yearns to fly Evermore with your hand in mine
Callous words set free again Over remnants of you and me Multiplied by the chaos within Purging you is a necessity Lies and hurt ensure we die Even though our love was pure Time will heal of that I'm sure Early memories forgotten in a haze
I fall into sweet sin Over and over again Praying its the last time But you know it's not So we play this game Of hide and seek Cat and mouse Master and slave Owner and pet You own me whole Body and soul My mind is moulded To your every wh…
Sneaking away for quick moments Even though the guilt gnaws Can't try to give you up Reckless love has us captive Engaged in this dangerous game Tonight we'll tell her the truth
Kinda dark... Sweet kisses he gives me No please don't Everlasting love he offers It's wrong Caressing my cheek he touches I feel dirty Reaping his reward so deep Why do this Even though it hurts to brea…
(Edited) She grabbed the album, feeling the dead weight in her chest as she cradled it. It had been so long since she had added photos let alone looked back. Opening the album, she took the photos out. One by one, she tore up the picture…
Once upon a time I fell Never caring about the consequences Creating an imperfect situation Evading the truth from within United within our beating hearts Predictably we were doomed to end Over and over we fought to win Nevermore would we…
It slides close to me, a chill wraps up my spine, A ghostly presence haunting me, clawing at my mind. It steps into my skin, looks out through my eyes, Twists me from this world as I scream out my denies. Who shall be my victim, as I …
Devilishly wicked Aching touches Reaping smiles Rewarding sighs Egotistical comedian Nevertheless, you're mine.
Regardless of what you believe Eons we have survived with belief Lies have been thrown over time Ignorance plays a part in the fight God doesn't need one specific persona Invest in learning more about you Omnipresent love should be our gl…
In his arms I feel safe In his arms I feel whole In his arms I am content In his arms I know my role With his kiss I am free With his kiss I barely breathe With his kiss I am alive With his kiss he sees beneath When he smiles I feel ok…
I'm fighting against the current Left gasping and drowning My wings have been clipped Dragged against the jagged rocks Whatever is watching me Laughs at me with malice I'm struggling to grab hold To feel something real To be a apart of lif…
Maybe it's time to ask for help Engage with a stranger and say Look just stand there and listen And let me get this pain out Nowadays the desolation wins Chased by repeated nightmares Hope is no longer my anchor Overtures of my screams ech…
Kiss me gently Kiss me passionately Keep me safe Drag me over the edge Hold my hand Or let me roam Be my sanctuary Set me free from my hell Write me a poem Sing me a song You're the sun after winter The rainbow after rain Cuddle me qu…
He's good looking and strong Actor, martial arts enthusiast Marry me won't you Jason Statham!
I glanced up and noticed the vase Like everything else in my life The roses had withered and died The flowers had turned dry and crisp The smell was no longer a perfume Then I saw it amongst the rubbish One rose still in bloom With petals…
You hold me close and the storm calms and recedes away. Those arms are the cocoon that protect me from the madness. Sitting in silence surrounded by strangers sharing words and life, we're hidden away in our private world. Peaceful. Still…
Late night conversations I can't get enough of you Hours spent talking Minutes spent waiting The reply alerts me I wake from my slumber To compare the madness Two people apart Locked in a spiral of want Didn't I just see you tonight What…
It's like a slow burning fire, always stoked beneath the conversation. It lies in wait for the opportune moment, releasing a spark of lust that flares for a minute before it dies back. We take turns adding wood to the fire, keeping it burni…
He says he'll teach me to play, Guitar, Xbox or life He says he wants to always stay, My heart, my bed, my arms He says it's never been this way, The feeling, the attraction, the lust I tell him I'm scared of it all, His power, my obsession…
It was a surprise Unexpected and new Setting free your emotion Reborn in seconds Drugged by you Sliding under the wave Heartbeat pulsing Vein throbbing Faint from your touch Intricate webs Lines you spin Caught me in crosshairs Nowhere …
They'll say it's wrong to feel so right Maybe we shouldn't shine so bright You've got me glowing with affection With it comes the offer of protection So what if we're not that conventional What we have wasn't to be intentional The smile…
A glimmer penetrates the cloud Just a small patch of light Of hope, of heaven, of joy And you bring it all freely With no judgement Just the need to offer shelter And you're aching to save me But it's too much so I run Breathless, tiring, …
The need in me to destroy Is growing strong once again It's not all your fault But it started way back then So I dress to impress With a smile full of promises They'll never be able to guess That inside I'm lacking feeling I flirt and I t…
Sometimes I get you I threw my hands in the air Sometimes I don't understand I asked him to show me something Sometimes I love you He said if you dare... Sometimes it's you I can't stand Come a little closer Sometimes I wanna hug you When y…
With every day the distance grows. What made me smile causes a frown. So the beginning of the end is near. My heart is empty for your love isn't here. ----- Fictional
Oh princess, why did you run from me? I know it seemed like I wanted forever but I had just wanted to be a friend to you. It seemed like I had just found someone who understood me and didn't care about the materialistic things in the world.…
I ran up the stairs as quickly as I could, stumbling only when I heard Paulo's crew screaming. I could only assume the figures had returned to deal with them.. I froze as I reached the door to what was Paulo's apartment. My mother was still…
Updated! 1 cuddles 2 kissing 3 laughing 4 reading 5 music 6 Pixar 7 Xbox 8 holding hands 9 movies 10 drinking 11 pisstaking 12 road trips 13 the boy 14 cooking 15 ice cream 17 hotels 18 room service 19 steak 20 stand up comedy 21 jimmy …
I think I finally met you yesterday. The man I've always searched for, the Prince Charming of my fairytales, my protector, my saviour, my hero...I found you. And it's ironic that I can't have you but then I don't know if I want you. It's cr…
Tense moments sneaking you in, risking getting caught Holding back laughter as you trip, holding hands in the dark Alone with our crazy conversations, followed by so much laughter No naked cuddles and tickles,…
Room falls quiet "Package for Lynn" Oh what...? A surprise for me! Seduced by the mystery of the box Everyone is waiting to peek So big my grin, roses and chocolates with a special message for me
Roses are red Violets are blue Be my valentine I'm waiting for you Blood is red Bruises are blue Don't say no Or I'll cut you ---- From the crazy girlfriend meme
The Christians say "Jesus is the messenger" The Muslims say "Mohammed is the messenger". Fuck who the messenger is, the question is "Did you get the message?!" ----- Something I heard on a stand up (surprisingly). We go to war over reli…
I dislike you. I loathe your taste. I detest your laugh. I abhor your smile. I shudder at once being together. I bear malice to your contact. I shrink from your messages. I recoil from pleas of friends. I hate that I ever loved you. It's r…
So you say no and I say yes. Then you say maybe and I cry hope. But you hide away and make me seek. For a happy ending that has no reality. I wallow in darkness until you shine. Free of chains I feel light. You whisper today as if it helps.…
It's not perfect It hurts, My heart I hate you I love you I'm unsure, Of everything I'm lost I'm confused I'm tired, Of fighting myself I want you I need you I loathe you, For not giving I ache I cry I smile, …
Fart sniffers require a certain smell Electro stimulation only for the brave Ticklers love to be stimulated to tears Inanimate objects are stroked to shine Slavery still occurs in the bedroom Humiliation nation for those that like, …
Lost thoughts reign in my Heart Overcome with feeling as we Ache Vehemently I declare remember This Everything started from the hEart
Hope's eternal flame lingering flicker Anguish at the thought of what may be Tears form when I think of another Erase our history, the beauty and the scars, the love and the hate, jus…
Welcome to the party of fun Introductions are not needed Never mind about letting go Everyone is here to get fucked up!
Seduction is a skill I've learned to posses Ask and you shall receive on your knees Directing you to the mighty throes of passion Isn't the only way I know how to make you beg Switching between the edges of pain and pleasure Togethe…
Foolish boy that he was Innocent pleas across the sea Needing to realise he had grown Dad learned not to hover Indeed everyone learned that day Never a better time to let go Gotta let them grow up! New friends were made Everlasting trust …
There once was man named Jack. Jack really loved to drink milk. One not so average day, however, Jack had a nasty run in with a hooker. This experience forever changed Jack's life. Now Jack is forced to milk her instead. And, I am sorry to …
Doing something new Aching to touch you Teasing you instead Establishing new rules Not sure how this will end Ignorant of how to behave Getting together for no reason Have to restart from the beginning Time to get to know you - again.
Set fire to my very soul Eradicate previous held conceptions Destructive ways to make me sigh Unique senses brought to life Carefully pick me apart Thrill me to my centre core Ignite my passions with a touch Or kiss me till I'm aflame Never…
“Go upstairs and hide!” my mum screamed at me. The noise seemed to snap me out of my daze, I had no clue what was going on but this wasn’t right. I felt fear tighten its grip on my heart. I couldn’t leave her, not like this. “No I don’t wa…
Gotta keep pushing I wanna quit Gotta keep trying Fuck this shit Gotta keep striving Just give up Gotta keep believing Drag me down Gotta keep going I'm not worthy Gotta be you I hate you
The amber liquid lures you in with its deceptive colour, honey gold to reassure you it could never hurt you. Until you taste it, the burn intensifies before it soothes as it goes down your throat. The warm feeling of a hug on the inside tri…
Once where there was laughter and hope, love and lust Now lies discarded dreams with twisted hate and bitter fates I let you in to create a home within me filled with light and joy You painted the walls red with my blood and anger Decorated…
Roaming the skies for a clue Underestimating the urge to be free Nowadays it's so easy to do Aching to fly and flee Which way to go I'm hesitant Ask me again by tomorrow Yet even then I wouldn't know
Hold me close until it's time to part Understand that it's only for a while Gone are the days of long distance Getting together is as simple as air Lounging around couldn't be a bore Especially when we tickle fight So hold me close for 5 mo…
It's not always right but I never said it was. This doesn't have to last forever but it has to last. And maybe it will end in tears but who said it won't be worth it? So this feeling is fleeting but I'm grabbing hold while I can. So won't y…
Saucy. Rated R. That dirty feeling A sweet thrill Runs between my legs As I long for you Such deep yearning To be filled Controlled by your power Show me the darker side Take me swiftly Or maybe slowly Break me to pieces Lead me to holy …
"I can't see you this weekend, sorry" "But why?! We've made plans!" "Sorry, something last minute came up. We'll do stuff next weekend okay?" "No not okay, what's more important than our plans?!" *Sighs* "It's Call of Duty Double XP we…
It's torture watching you with her The way you look in her eyes with care I try to pretend that it doesn't affect me But I still love you, don't you see? I wish I had spoken when I had a clue To be brave and open I wish I could do It's too…
The trust I placed in you, destroyed. The faith I had in humanity, crushed. The fear of what you became, grew. The respect I had for you, never more. The fact you're now a father, sickening. The first time I saw you in 8 years, invisib…
I'm ready to sleep the whole night I'm ready to give up against the fight I'm ready to give up control for a while I'm ready to pick up the phone and dial I'm ready to forgot the pain and strife I'm ready to power up and live my life I'…
They say if you love someone, let them go to see if they come back. But lets face it, if you really love them, you're not letting them go. ------ That makes you a bit obsessive :p
Hey baby, I like to imagine how it will be when it's you and me but I can't see it clearly. Like a forgotten memory, it slips out of my grasp when I wonder how you could possibly fit perfectly inside me. You are my future yet the creation …
The way you hold me and stroke my back How you watch me when you're trying not to laugh When you make me laugh even though I don't want to The way you're animated after an insane sugar high How you look out for me when it's not your job The…
Terrified of walking in another day Echoes of the person I once was Aching to just walk away Ready to give in the fight So you win for I am broken
A slip and a slide in the snow Felt breathless before I muttered an ow" So I indulged at lunch to ensure I live Diesel wellingtons that make the snow give Way underneath my snazzy covered feet So come on snow, my boots are ready to eat! -…
200th opuss :) The night has stolen from me With every breath I see it take A piece of my heart A part of my mind An inch of my strength I try to grab it but it dissolves Already a part of the night Where the stars don't linger And hide a…
It's crazy. Sane people don't have these moments. Utterly nuts. That's the only way to describe this anxious feeling. Tired. Dejected. It's been a long day. All I want is my bed. So explain how I'm on a train to see you...? Crazy. Totally…
A little taste Just a little That sweet sigh As you make me swear Just a little more A rough thrust Sweat mingling You make me cry Tears of joy slip The rough handling A feeling I love As you lose control With reckless abandonment You stri…
Sometimes I liken it to a moment the world stands still. Not today though for you've been a pain in my arse. Oh how I'm hoping for a snow day but please don't make me ill. Work should be cancelled so I can stay up late and look at the st…
Wouldn't it be great if there was like a challenge bulletin? So you could recap and see what was going on, or what you had missed? Just an idea I had.
Left gasping and breathless The words escape me in a rush of fear There's no way of knowing the outcome But you have to know its how I feel They jump from my mouth in a rush Determined to cross the distance to your ears And try as I might t…
The lack of sleep that drove me to 5am insanity I left the house this morning fearing for your sanity Stuck on perilous roads with antagonising dicks I prayed you would make it to west london quick! The truth was that it took hours to reac…
Your bags are packed and goodbyes have been said The smile you show is hollow of feeling Where excitement once was is now filled with dread The day has come to start a new life with no clue You're leaving a city full of loving care and supp…
I wrote this 14 months ago. I don't know whether to cry or laugh at the ending. Just wish I could hug the old me and tell her "It's gonna get worse before it gets better". As a general FYI, the guy mentioned in the post got in touch when …
The memory fades with every passing day I no longer feel the acidic burn of hate My pain has been replaced with strength For you will not be the one who crushes me I wept for you for weeks while you stood Unmoved by my tears and hurt on dis…
So this ache in my chest will soon be Eased with joyful heartbeats at the End of being miles and countries apart. You are the thought that I long to make real Our plans to grow up apart and walk away Underestimated by the depth of f…
Cold and alone I walk this road With no hope or faith I'm destitute from love I long and linger Too long and too often I know not of how to be Sane or normal who knows I wish I could be cold Inside where nothing matters But the battle of m…
A little swearing near the end ;) I gave you a name to call my own As a jokey way to celebrate your throne The trend was set when you started it "Babycakes" in your heart made me legit I followed it up when we were apart "Squiggle" sent at…
See this ink right here? This is to remind me that I've got wings that were made to fly. That from a tiny cocoon, I can emerge and soar with the wind, with nothing to hold me back. I will dazzle you with my beauty and have you reeling in aw…
I'd forgotten how cold winter could be, especially when you're alone and lacking sleep. This big bed swallows me whole most nights, calling me to rest my head before teasing me with it's memories and whispers of pleasure. I find myself w…
Lets go Amsterdam Smoke it up like the locals and see the girls Lets go Italy Romance me in candlelight and buy me pearls Lets go Miami Party all night and sleep all day Lets go Hawaii Relax by the sea is where we'll stay Lets go Cana…
Your lips linger As they kiss my lips Finally it happens The start of eternal bliss
Alcohol. Mix it. Throw up. Lesson learnt.
Good times for a change, This is the first day of my life, Kiss me each morning, You saved me the day you came alive, I had to find you tell you I need you, I'm giving you all my love, You made it impossible to ever love somebody else, Just…
Won't you come home tonight And don't let us start a fight I've been needing you like I need air So please don't play dirty and be fair Just sit there, talk and let's be us No need to brawl, fight and cuss I wish you'd see within me My he…
I'm not really here, these people don't know The real me, the girl lost inside I smile and nod, not knowing what they say Hoping with every minute they'll go away I don't know who I am anymore Partly your fault, mostly your fault Inside I…
Suffering with the ache in my chest Over the future doubt of us Under the weather can't describe it Lingering thoughts are drowning me Maybe it's a sign of what to come Aching for you yet it's not enough Tender words no longer between us…
So here's a new story. Rated R. It's a story I wrote a year ago, updated it and edited out a few details. Anyway enjoy ;) When the clock finally struck 6:30pm, Peter left his desk and called it quits. He had the whole weekend to himse…
Woke up this early morning, bleary eyed and confused. I turned over, confined within my covers and I remembered why I was up at 7am. I wish I could have taken a photo of that moment; captured how the early morning sun touched his shoulder,…
I really don't like the "follow" game I'm sorry I just don't get your aim There's no prize as we're all the same What do you hope to achieve, fame? I don't want to point fingers and blame But you know who you are looking for acclaim So fol…
Hi Lj...well it's still Lynn for now? You haven't changed yet! I'm not quite sure how to start this. There's so much that's about to happen in the next 8 weeks and you're not prepared. Remember Christmas, when you finally felt at peace wit…
Tossing and turning Sighing and yearning Missing and aching Sleeping and dreaming Wishing and praying Drinking and writing Crying but smiling
If I could write the story of me and you, I'd be at a lost for words to explain how we met. It would be a tale of lust, love and pain; a short story that never had an end. If I could describe my love for you, there wouldn't be enough adject…
Sitting down across me is pure pleasure in a suit. He is a beautiful specimen that's dressed to boot. Slightly muscular and a hint of a panther tattoo on his right arm. The shirt hugs him in all the right places as he showcases charm. Wit…
Mine. My own. My escape. My prison. My toy. My gem. My rock. My friend. My enemy. My lover. My drug. My dealer. My conscious. My nothing. My everything. My past. No longer my present. ------- Just to add, everything is okay!
I saw you with her, holding hands. On that street, you were out of time and place, like the remnants of a dream materialising into the mundane. Her long dark hair trailed in the hot afternoon wind as you walked, laughing together; her shoul…
The second step seemed easier than the first, the cuts on my heart now modest I didn't think to stop and breathe, your head high as you watched with a grin It felt like time had never passed, my love and care I had promised But you threw it…
The first step is the hardest, linking again across shattered glass With a wariness of words, we fell into a familiar routine A thing which was at first amazing, feels boring and crass The way we swap lines, acting roles from a played out s…
Still that pang of loneliness, when the new year arrived Auld Lang Syne played through the speaker, fireworks rocking in the sky I try to spare you the thinly veiled emotion, I can't blame the drink "Happy new year Irish, here's to a new st…
Dear 2012, I'm sad to see you go, for despite our differences, we actually had some good times. I know we started off thinking it would be okay but it didn't last did it? And cursing at you didn't help, it wasn't your fault. So I'm sorry t…
Let go of the past, you can't change it. Holding onto that anger, that fear will destroy you. But you can change how it affects your future, you can accept the decisions/mistakes and move forward. - Things I heard in church today!
Please be warned its a bit long. Rated R. For @MinxyMolly who wanted her own bit of filth ;) The knock on the door roused her from her daydream. "M'lady the count is here for you" said the maid, "I'll prepare the parlour" she continued …
8 months ago - Dull. Grey, lifeless, boring, so utterly dull. There was no point in looking outside of my bubble. Then this streak of colour cracked my bubble piece by piece. I'm not sure how or why, but your crayons fit my picture perfe…
Angry words hidden under pretence Oh I smile but it's no longer warming I'm twisted and bitter inside dear one The cause is always undeniably you Or maybe I place the blame unaware That the true nature of the beast wins I've hurt and killed…
6 blissful months together Cause I don't have the time 7 hellish months apart And I don't have the patience Truer words never spoken What do you take me for? Playing with me like a toy Why am I still waiting? Who am I suffering for Cause…
And I guess this is how the beginning of the end starts. With a small sacrifice that changes the ways in which we're set. The hollow feeling is back again and we're reeling. The detachment has grown but you can't see it. So I'll keep quiet…
I write because I can. I write because I have lived. I write because I've yet to live. I write because I have loved. I write because I've lost. I write because I want to teach. I write because I'm still learning. I write to express my feel…
Stay with me, my love Don't let our troubles break us Oh hold me close, my love In this insanity we'll save us Don't despair, my love Our love will never curse us Won't you weep, my love For the pain overcomes us We broke down, my love Acc…
I love you... Freely. Justly. Temptingly. Costly. Willingly. Openly.
There's this place I go, Filled with friends, laughter and a Ho It's the best place for me, Cos I'm treated like the Queen B But if there's any of you out there, Who wanna pull up a chair and share Then come over and kik around, Lets talk…
"The biggest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing the world he didn't exist" The Usual Suspects
I don't know if it's a sign of alcoholism or just how mental I am.... Tidying up around my bed, going towards the back - in between the chest of drawers and the wall - I found a bottle of wine. Unopened. Happy fucking days!
In a rare moment of peace, where we didn't disappoint each other, where there was no anger or hate, spite or drama, accusations or doubt....I spoke to my mother like a daughter would. We spent an hour together without any pretence of niceti…
I'm starting early. Resolutions - I will love myself more. I will not fall under the expectations of others. I will cry less. Unless its angry tears in which case, I can't help that. I will laugh more. A lot more than the first 3 mo…
You know what makes it Christmas for me? Die Hard. Actually Bruce Willis in general. So you know what I'm doing today! I'm wishing you all a Merry Xmas filled with joy and love, especially to my dear friends. Enjoy the day and keep the r…
Xmas. Christmas. Jesus's birthday. The season to be jolly. My mum asked me the other day why this one day was soooooo important. And I could explain it to her. Yeah it's a day off but why do we go through all the shopping and the food? …
I relieve those memories of how we used to be. You at work on a Friday, me packing an overnight bag at home. 6pm would arrive, the weekend would start with a text "bounce" followed by a ride back to yours. Inevitably we'd end up in Tesco,…
"I'm going back to 505, If it's a 7 hour flight or a 45 minute drive, In my imagination you're waiting lying on your side, With your hands between your thighs" I'd said I'd call him when I got home. 13 mins later he rang me. With his s…
You make me smile like no other person can. That's how I know it's real.
- Fuck my job. Fuck your job. Fuck this distance. Fuck you pms. Fuck you Christmas. Fuck you time. Fuck your heart. Fuck the maybes. Fuck my love. Fuck my denial. Fuck the possibilities. Fuck it all. Just...just fuck this.
I wish I could redo some aspects of my life, change some decisions of my life and maybe they would lead to a happier path. I used to think if I was skinnier, if I was prettier, sophisticated, more lovely...the world would align in accordan…
I know everyone is busy with the advent challenge and Xmas in general. But the soppy romantic in me would love to hear your love stories; happy, funny or just heartbreakingly sad. The ones that inspired you and taught you to be better. B…
I'm sleepy I'm ill I'm tired I'm drained But for you... I'll wait I'll stay awake I'll keep count I'll struggle Just to hear... Your voice Your love Your smile Your fears Call me and let's pretend... You're here We're together We're…
How did the Dairy Queen get pregnant? Burger King forgot to wrap his whooper!
What's the difference between greeting the Queen of England and greeting Bill Clinton? You only have to get down on one knee to greet the Queen
What's the difference between a blonde and a brick wall? A brick wall's only been laid once.
Contains swearing. I need to leave. I need to leave before I scream and burn this place down. I've never known stress like this, I've never hated a job like this. I've never...fuck I've never ranted about the same thing over and over again…
Christmas. I envy those with a tree, with a shimmer of lights and boxes of delight. I look at those children, how they run with glee shouting at every toy "FOR ME!" I miss having a special day, where we share our joy and under mistletoe …
Give me a taste, give me a sip Gimme something that tastes like shit Give me the pain and take my tears Please take away everything but my fears Be the brave, be the strong Let me help you see what's right from wrong Tell me the truth, tel…
Oh hello small child. Aww you're adorable aren't you? All cosy in your pram. You've got a great view of the world from down there. Here, show me a smile!...not gonna smile at me? *sniff* okay then. I'll give you some space. ... Why are y…
It's times like these I wish I could wax lyrical poetry to give that depth and feeling to a situation. Sadly you're stuck with just lil old me! Remember the guy I'm sorta seeing, whatshisface...Irish?! The one who won't allow me a furry a…
“Maddie!” Ethan shouted, hearing her name echo into the woods. “Yeah?” came a soft drawl behind his shoulder. Ethan jumped at her voice as he turned around to face her. “You scared the shit out of me!” he chastised her as he pulled her …
Children are abused in different ways by parents, relatives and strangers these days. It's a sad fact that most people either growing up abused or know someone who has been abused. Like I said, there's different ways. Sexual abuse is probab…
Love or lust? Obsessive love. And no, not the stalker type. I mean the whole "I could live without you but then life wouldn't be worth living type". The type of love where you can spend days in and out with each other, be jealous and be c…
Rated R for offensive language. It makes no sense that I'm tearing up, it's not me that's been hurt. It's not me that's broken and alone. I feel hollow and desolate, unable to come in and save the day like I had before and that hurts. Y…
Babies. So adorable, tiny and full of innocence. Why can't they stay at that age where all they do is sleep and poop? They grow up and start answering you back. "Why?" Is their favourite response to everything. "Cos I said so" just isn't …
Wanted: A job that allows me to flow with creativity and fun ideas. Doesn't restrict me from enjoying life or being myself, but encourages me to be my chatty, bubbly and wickedly delightful self. For sale: The self esteem of someone who …
These dark winter nights seem to have crept up on me. I remember how it used to be, when it would rain for hours on end...or when the humid heat would have me tearing at my sheets. I remember the endless cloudy and rainy days, before that t…
I've never been a victim of assault, ether violent or sexual. I've never had to worry about the guys across the road and what they intend to do to me. I've never been a victim of rape culture or any form of rape. But it makes me wonder why…
I woke up in tears, the dream a stark reminder of how much I was damaged. I never used to care about lies, I trusted without fear or doubt. But at that moment I knew what he had done to my innocence of love. And now it's down to you to b…
The quiet anger, the way the tension builds around you. I keep quiet and hide, this isn't my fight to have. But I watch as your anger simmers, and the way you evaluate. Maybe you're rethinking your choices, wondering how you managed to fuck…
There is no greater joy than taking your bra off after a hard day of being a woman. *sighs happily*
Dreams are a funny thing. One minute you're flying, the next you're fighting off the zombie apocalypse. My dreams never seem to stick to the beaten path; From lustful encounters to downright horror chases. Last night was different, I was ru…
Facebook is where I hide my true thoughts from 'friends'. Twitter is where I act like an idiot and try to be funny. Instagram is where I find lovey-dovey things to like and post. Tumblr is where I go when I have nothing else to do. Opuss i…
“Beware of the man who denounces woman writers; his penis is tiny and he cannot spell.” - Erica Jong
It's no longer a case of picking between you and him. It's about you and me, about us coexisting in a sulphuric world. It's between my sanity and your undoing, my selfishness, my failings. Your expectations. It's between two different …
So I've been gone a while (a week is a lifetime!) but I wanna jump on the bandwagon. Lets start shall we? I'm Lj. Lynn if you really want to make me feel 50 but please don't. My family does that to me enough times! I just turned 24 last…
It felt perfect, almost surreal. I forgot myself, I forgot them, I forgot the struggle and I forgot the pain. On a day as beautiful as this, it was tainted. With reality. With tears. With hurt and anger. So let the self destruction begin…
Monday Oct 1st is my birthday. Finally hitting the mid twenties! I also get to spend it with the boy. *squee* This is also my 100th opuss. And I'd like to dedicate it to you. I'm thankful to all of you who have read my blog posts, stori…
It hasn't fully hit me that today is happening. I was up at 5am from excitement/nervousness. It's almost like last week was just a preview. Today is the real thing. Butterflies have sent up camp in my stomach. My heart is already on a ne…
"How are you Maddison?" the Doc asked her, stopping at the edge of the Fog so that she was unable to seem him. They had played this game for many weeks now, and every time she had tried to find out who he was, he had disappeared in a flash …
"I don't think you will ever fully understand how you've touched my life and made me who I am. I don't think you could ever know just how truly special you are that even on the darkest nights you are my brightest star" - Erica Jong
It's that moment when a smile realises its about to be chased away. When a pair of brown eyes make contact with grey ones. The look down to your lips before back at your eyes, the challenge stated. As if by magic, our heads begin a gradual …
Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it...it really is worth fighting for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk everything, you risk even more. - Erica Jong.
Nothing was more daunting than the first day at a new college. It was about a thousand times worse in the middle of the term. Once you'd missed your chance to join a group or become a part of the social status quo, you were left to obscurit…
Moments. That's what it was. A moment. A moment to touch his hair. A moment to inhale the smell of him. A moment to grasp that feeling of home. A moment of catching him staring at me. A moment of familiarity, that nothing hasn't changed. A…
Update 2: I'M AT THE AIRPORT. I'm also dying of a panic attack but that's a btw Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucccccccccckkkkkkkkk me!!! I totally can't breathe nor can I actually handle thinking that I will see him in 40 mins or less. So instead …
Some words can at times be what we need to feel wanted. They can make our day, a brief moment when the clouds part and sunshine breaks through. You don't have to shout them, just gently whisper them. And while it wasn't THAT specific set o…
It had been hours since Ethan had woken up from his coma. That was the official term that Doc had given it. Ethan still preferred to call it the 'fog' because he had felt alive in there, to him, he hadn't been asleep. He had kept quiet whil…
Ethan had walked miles into the fog looking for a way out. This had become a daily routine, a way to keep himself sane while the fog surrounded him. Hours had passed and though he felt tired, he still had enough energy to keep walking. Time…
"Are you happy?" came the question from his therapist. "Is anyone happy?" was the reply he gave. "You didn't answer the question" "It was a stupid question" "Why was it stupid?" "I wouldn't be here talking to you if I was happy" "You don't …
Let's pretend no one can hear us. Let's hurl insults across the room at each other. Let's take a small issue and blow it up sky high. Let's fire words throw the space like they're bullets. Let's demean each other with careless words. Let's …
I'm cold in this chair, the breeze upon me. My blood has chilled, no way to be free. I've sat here and thought, why I still pursue? I guess I'm waiting for a moment, a sign or a clue. The excitement has built, the butterflies have grown. I…
Sometimes you make it hard to keep loving you...
I was once part of a not so unique club. The kind of club that made you feel special and valued. You could sign up to join this club once in a lifetime. More than twice and you should rethink your membership... But this club - oh what a bu…
"I got you toblerone" "Oh yeah? I have no idea how you're meant to eat it - do i shove it in my mouth or nimble it daintily?" "I refuse to make a sexual reference here :p I'll give it to you next week" "Next week...so you're coming to the …
"I'm more than just an option, refuse to be forgotten" I remember the day I realised I totally loved you. The day I thought, "why can't we be together?", the day I decided to tell you I love you. Those who were around to witness the strugg…
I'll be flying home tonight. I know you've missed me ;) Here's the thing. You know when you want something so bad, you'll jump at any small chance to have it? This is mine. "The boy" is in London for a brief moment. He's off to Europe for…
The sun heats my blood. The sun burns my skin. The sun darkens my soul while the night lights me up. I feel alive when the sun goes down. This full moon of mine has kissed my lips more as if it were a lover. As if it were you. The ni…
I'm leaving on a jet plane. I'll be back again - in 9 days. Going on a well deserved holiday to sunny Portugal. Need a break from my countdown
I'm jealous of the couples that get to hold hands, share intimate jokes in person and caress each other. I'm envious of the looks of love, the soft touches and the whispers of sweet nothings. I don't want to be a 'me' anymore. I'm ready t…
I'm blushing like an idiot. You wouldn't tell but it's there. A smile on my face and a spring in my step. Work doesn't phase me, I'm happy to answer queries. This is the high of 'the boy'. Like a hit of ecstasy, I'm smiley and happy.…
Grey sky eyes Caramel latte skin A button nose Curly brown hair Full lips that pout 10 little toes 10 little fingers The cutest little tummy And a smile to take my breath away I'd love him or her forever. They'd be a creation of you and m…
Flights booked. Heart soars. Hotels confirmed. Smile grows. Lingerie bought. Pill taken. Calendars synced. Excitement starts. Fancy clothes ready. Heart crushed. A real date planned. Tears running. I love you. I like you. I …
Nervous anticipation. I can feel the sweat trickling down the back of my neck. Goosebumps raised on my arms as I watch the board. I shouldn't be here. I should be waiting in the room. But I couldn't stay away. So here I am, watching and…
Funny how things can change. And not funny ha-ha but more like "fuck me, that's mental". The time between an old life and a new one has been a swift moment. I lived in a world of pain and anger. Tears and hurt. Darkness and despair. I…
Love doesn't mean losing yourself in someone, it means opening yourself to someone, giving them room to breathe but to also grow within you. I can sit here and say I don't want to give my all to 'the one'. But I do want the option to give h…
I had promised there would be no more talk about 'the boy'. I clearly didn't listen to myself. But Opuss allows me to ramble about stupid shit. Case in point. The boy returns for my birthday in October (and yes if he didn't care why come …
I can chose to be with someone new. Someone new who is available to love me. To love me as if I'm the best thing in his world. His world which only revolves around my happiness. My happiness isn't at the forefront of your mind. Your mind wh…
I can do without money. I can do without fame. I can do without sunshine. I can do without rain. I can do without stars. I can do without clouds. I can do without sandy beaches. I can do without fields of green. I can do without coffee. I c…
I wish I could ease your pain. I wish I could be there for you. I wish that he hadn't had died I wish that he had reached out. I wish you had known what he was thinking. I wish you could have been his hero. I wish most of all that you were…
The intimacy of kissing another person. Feeling their lips on yours, tongues dancing the tango of lust as bodies pushed together crave a need that can't be explained. For a few seconds, you're not alone in the world and you're wanted by s…
She tore up the pictures, memorising each photo before destroyingl its existence. As if she could erase his memory. She made a pile of happy faces, exotic places, wondering who these people were and what she had ever had in common with them…
That awkward moment when your period tricks you into thinking its over - then shows up after you put on your happy-go-lucky panties. Such a fml moment.
Dating is a new concept for me. Going on dates as a couple - I'm well versed in that. Going on dates as a single person - I have no clue as to what is the typical behaviour or social response. I now find myself with guys replying to my p…
In 18 hrs he will be gone. I'm at his house helping him pack, and by helping, I mean drinking and choosing what music we listen to. He allows me this, still making me laugh as if tomorrow is nothing but a normal day. I have not broken d…
The rhythm of my footsteps crossing flatlands to your door Have been silenced forevermore The distance is quite simply much too far for me to row It seems farther than ever before Oh, no I need you so much closer I need you so much closer
What's opuss? Oh some blog type thing. -opens the app- Nooooooo don't look!! It's personal
Violate me Penetrate me Break me down until I'm numb and cannot feel no more. Don't use but abuse me, create a burning need in me for something I cannot articulate. Take me to the edge of darkness until the light can no longer save me.
It's his voice. I'm sure it's his voice that melts me. I go about my normal day, not caring about anything and then he calls me and his voice just takes me away from everything. It's the same voice that reminds me he'll be leaving me. …
I don't deserve it but I want it. I need his love to make me whole, I want to give him everything I can...and in return I receive nothing. Why am I content with nothing?
Behind these words, I can be anyone with no fear of repercussion. I wish I could live my life like that.
I spent a day with the boy I love without a single embrace, kiss or touch from him. All I got were the words 'I'm here cos I wanted to see you, and show you art'. If I take comfort in that, then romance isn't dead right?
Everyone I know, goes away, in the end
Rejection is a bitter pill to swallow. What's worse is knowing someone can care about you, but they're not willing to take a risk on you. Essentially - you're not worth it. Harsh dude, harsh.
How do you know when you have depression?
“You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make …
I can feel you pulling away. With every phone call, you feel further from me. I don't know how to get you back.
Settle down with me, cover me up, cuddle me in Lie down with me, and hold me, in your arms And your hearts against my chest, your lips pressed to my neck I’m falling for your eyes, but they don’t know me yet And with a feeling I forget, I’…
Waking up at 6am just to come over to be with me for the day. If that ain't some form of love....then I don't know what it is. Getting a text from your wanker of an ex - not even worth reading let alone ruining my moment of joy.
Maybe I'll be drunk again.... Stupid love songs+drunk me=enough courage to try to tell you I love you. Fate intervened. You don't pick up so I guess it doesn't matter what I feel. I wonder what if...?
'Cause if you're not really here Then the stars don't even matter Now I'm filled to the top with fear But it's all just a bunch of matter 'Cause if you're not really here Then I don't want to be either I wanna be next to you Black and gold …
I'm not alone. I'm constantly surrounded by the ghosts of my memories, the thoughts of my family, the insecurities that hang on to me. I feel lonely but I'm never alone. Most days I'm trying to keep up with everyone's perception of me b…
Sleep. My mistress calls to me. I've been ignoring her for the last few days, fleeting moments where we unite together only to have her cruelly snatched away. She taunts me, weaving in and out of my mornings, teasing me, making me crave he…
Think of writing a grown up vampire story, no teenage drama and certainly no love triangles. I just need to distract myself from my own heartache, I spend too much time with my thoughts and this makes me a crazy person I'm sure.
It's on the tip of my tongue, I can feel them, the roll of the words. I just never find the right moment to say them in. Maybe I'll do a call by - wait for you to pick up the phone, scream the words then hang up. It's easier than waiting …
Woke up this early morning, bleary eyed and confused. Turned over and I remembered why I was up at 7am. I wish I could have taken a photo of that moment; captured how the sun touched his shoulder, creating a soft glow that seemed to bounce…
Moment of honesty Someone's gotta take the lead tonight, whose it gonna be? I'm gonna sit right here And tell you all that comes to me If you have something to say You should say it right now... You give me a feeling that I never felt…
That awkward silence between two people who can no longer stand each other
Lying, I still can't find the truth. So I spin another line on you You can't blame a fella for trying I'm hoping, you eat my every word Doesn't it taste so good? But deep inside I'm dying Oh! I wanna word with you If there's never a perfect…
Sometimes, good men do bad things Just as bad men can do good Tell me which way you like it? -Mr Hudson
It always surprises me how good crying feels afterwards
The only thing that doesn't change in life...is that things change.
I fell in love once. I thought he was the one. The cracks began to show, but still I strived on. I knew I loved him but I no longer craved him. The cracks became canyons, we eventually broke. The love that once was - is no more. All that'…
Look at me sitting in a crowd You would never believe that it is a lie I'm not really here, these people don't know The real me, the girl lost inside I smile and nod, not knowing what they say Hoping with every minute they'll go away I don…
At what point do you realise all you're doing is worth nothing? We're governed by society's rules and laws, required to live by them if we want to fit in. Controlled by pent up anger, I wish to be free of the chains around me but without yo…
Freedom is costly at any price. But knowing I'm free of you is a price I'll gladly suffer.
There's a time limit, ticking away quietly in the background. I've tried to ignore it but I'm acknowledging it more and more with each passing day. I don't know why but the pessimist in me is being an extreme realist and forcing me to not s…
Dull. Grey, lifeless, boring, so utterly dull. There was no point in looking outside of my bubble. Then this streak of colour cracked my bubble piece by piece. I'm not sure how or why, but your crayons fit my picture perfectly. So tell m…