I woke up in tears, the dream a stark reminder of how much I was damaged.
I never used to care about lies, I trusted without fear or doubt.
But at that moment I knew what he had done to my innocence of love.
And now it's down to you to bear the brunt, to show me that it's not like that.
I'm sorry that you're left holding the pieces of my heart but I trust you to heal me.
I woke up in tears today and you're the one I missed.
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If I was an angel, my wings would be tipped with black...writer, lover, dreamer, thinker, complicated.
Patchwork heart. She stitched it herself. She gave it away. To save someone else. But he didn't want her. He was already in love. With her sister, a beautiful dove. Somehow she got her heart back.
If I don't return your messages Then my silence lets you know That I haven't turned & looked back Since the day I let you go.
I am. C. RA NG. SHI. No escape. Time is to. N. D E. N V. E E. R. Repeating pains. And reopening. S. C. heAled. R. S. So someday. I might not. (turn page). F. RECOVER. O.
A bruise from each touch, Words scar your skin, Bleeding from a look. Your fragility defines you, More than it should. When cotton wool and bubble wrap break your skin, How can I protect you.
I admit that I thought there was only me, Please don't ask me why. I won't tell you it was what you said To make me feel so undead, Because without you, I won't die.
I can take friends. I can deal with that after some time But it will be done.
#household As cold as ice With dead brown eyes As hard as stone She never cries Her tears ran out A long time ago There's nothing left She's just a shell When just a teen She cried and cried She...
Unfortunately I don't know what to do with the memory of you; Burning it feels like three whole years of my life has just been flushed away, including the good because you were never all bad.
Beautiful and sad ๐ฐ๐ญ I hope you are ok hun ๐ I know that feeling, bumped my car yesterday, wrecked a wheel and smashed my wing mirror and the first person I wanted to call, who I knew would help me, I couldn't call him. Blah stupid LDR, can't get the hugs when you need 'em! ๐
@sjw @Irrational_Kimmi I'm okay, just the second weekend in a row I've woken up crying. Silly bad dreams. Kimmi hope you're okay. It's Saturday, you get to speak to him today right? Hugs ๐
@chickgamer ๐ I've tried but I can't get through. It's just going straight to 'number cannot be reached message' which means he's got no signal or the network is down - it happens a lot. I've tried loads today but to no avail. Ah the joys of LDR.
@Irrational_Kimmi very stupid Nepal. I assume Skype would be no better since he'd need Internet and steady electricity. Hugs. You're braver and stronger than I am. I properly had a meltdown this morning, was all ready to give up just because I didn't think he cared. See, this is why women are labelled emotionally unstable! ๐
@chickgamer uh-huh ๐ he'd need to actually have electricity! And the Internet is terrible out there and only available in an Internet cafe, so not even private for us to Skype. I'm not brave, I'm totally useless and weepy when I can't speak to him. I just cried yesterday when I had my car incident and couldn't call him. ๐ข Don't give up, I have moments like that too when I think he's not bothered, but it's just men being men - they don't make such a show of it, though I'm sure they feel it too! ๐
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