20 November 2012
Love or lust?
Obsessive love.
And no, not the stalker type. I mean the whole "I could live without you but then life wouldn't be worth living type". The type of love where you can spend days in and out with each other, be jealous and be crazy about each other, literally have your friends warn you that you're giving yourself to a guy too much but you don't care type love!
I'm needy. I'm possessive. I want all his attention. I want him to crave me and actually want me - all the time. I'm not jealous of other girls who got an ounce of what I have but the idea of him with someone else, oh hell no!
I want the cute messages, flowers, emails and letters. I want kisses in the morning and cuddles at night. I want his hand in mine as we go to dinner, surrounded by friends. I want him holding me as we watch a concert, swaying to the music, lost in a sea of people. I want his love to love me, unyielding and forever.
Inferno lust.
I feel safe with him, more so when he's in me and I feel home. I love nothing better than having him possess me. I admit it, for him, I'm a weakling. Oh we can play and I'm in charge, but then his energy changes. His eyes get darker with passion and inside myself, I whimper. I know what's coming and I crave the sudden need to have him, as he wants me to have him.
I don't want to wear his skin as a second coat, but I love being near him. When it's just us in bed, talking and giggling, we're a unit. And I love that. There's nothing more I want than to be totally involved with someone, who knows me better than myself. I want him to be jealous, to want me, to love me so much that his passion is liable to break through his control at any point.
I want him to tease me and torment me make me beg, make me cry and then finally release me. Then kiss my tears away and tell me he loves me because I give up my soul to him in every orgasm.
Can I have both?
Possessive Or Passionate? • Opuss № I