Funny

Funny how things can change.
And not funny ha-ha but more like "fuck me, that's mental".
The time between an old life and a new one has been a swift moment.
I lived in a world of pain and anger.
Tears and hurt.
Darkness and despair.
If I wasn't crying and screaming, I was broken and silent.
And now...now I wonder how we got there.
How I got there.
Didn't I deserve better?
Fuck didn't you promise me better?
Maybe we were just worlds apart.
I look back not in anger.
I see that you were not the one for me.
August 11th would have been 4 years together.
In a years time we would have been married for a month.
You had been my rock for sooooo long.
But you were also dragging me deeper into the murky seas of depression.
I couldn't swim free, I don't think I knew how.
I had a angel in disguise though.
They played their part as the designated hero.
I've broken free of the water now.
I'm breathing easy again.
I see the sunlight.
Funny how things change.