Sinks

Everytime I see you my heart pounds & sinks at the same time .
I wonder did you know how badly you've hurt me .
Everytime someone says your name my emotion turns into anger .
Each time when I listen to a song we'd used to love I think about you , i miss you really but when I think of what you've done to me I shut every thoughts of you and now every song "we'd" used to listen I have zero thoughts of you which I'm happy about it .
When I pass by the places we'd used to go , memories rushed into my head then again I shut it off & repeated the same thing.
I am glad I made the right move of breaking up with you .
After all those months being with you , trying to teach you the values of what a man should be , you thought of it as 'I am forcing you into something you don't like' but all I did was to advise you on what you should do for your dad .
It's alright .
Im still in the process of healing & I'm doing just fine.

But to you I hate most :
Please do not try to find a way to text me or call or anyways of communication with me !
I will not want to see your name or hear from you ever again!
I am not your other exs who can be friends after what shit you've done!

& ouh don't pretend to sympathise on the things you've done and appologies !
I don't accept the apology.

So yes ex boyfriend ; I hold grugde & tons of hatred to you.

(this was because I went out with a total of 40 people for our festive celebration of Hari Raya & unfortunately he was there , I didn't talk or say a word to him but at the end of the day he texted me to apologise but I just couldn't pretend or give in so I never will accept any apology coming from him.
Yes I know I should forgive & 'pretend' I forget everything but I'm not that kind . If you've hurt me entirely bad I will hate you! So yea , sorry if I rant out a lil just needed to get it off my chest )