I Loved You Once.

Laying in bed listening to the drops of rain fall onto the surface of earth, the sound soothes me . Reminds me of your voice , of how the words that you once spoke fell hard into my heart and forged themselves there as if they were engraved on the promise ring that you threw away . One reason more for which I can't seem to forget you and your stupidities . Who do you think you are? You only seem to care when someone else is in the picture . Impossible to resist but I wouldn't count on being flawless only on the outside . I'm stronger than I was yesterday, then I was the day before that . Yes , she is prettier and skinnier. But my love doesn't come from someones physical appearance nor does confidence itself . It come from my knowledge, intellect and heart . Don't stop there keep turning your perspective. Once you see that I no longer desire you , no longer worship nor remember you you'll realize that I did truly love you. Making my thoughts vague . Making me believe that you would actually be there then , now and forever . You don't get to me like you used to. And in the back of my mind you're just a bad memory that once used to please me. I'm over fighting the same battle I keep losing . Sad isn't it? To have no one to blame but yourself for leading me on, for keeping me running in circles till I got tired of chasing after you and craving your attention . I don't feel the same way about you . The thing is memories never change but people do , thoughts and feelings do...