18 April 2012
I have this friend... Well I wasn't really his friend at first but he said he was mine and he just kinda followed me around all the time and I just kinda ignored him really and carried on with my life. When I was 13 I wanted to be in with the "cool" children and when they finally invited me into their group I was very keen to please and do all the "cool" stuff they were doing. One day after school they dared me to steal some sweets from a shop... I hesitated. "you want me to steal?" "yeah it's no big deal" said Michelle the leader of this "cool" gang. "don't do it, it's wrong." I heard the voice coming from the ignored self proclaimed friend behind me. "COME ON!!" said Michelle, "go on" jeered the other members of the gang. " don't do it, it's wrong" repeated the voice behind me. But I ignored him and did it anyway.. I ran in the shop grabbed all that I could and legged it! As we ran off with my ill gotten gains I heard screams of pain coming from the voice behind me. I slowed to turn around to see what had happened but I was dragged on by the rest. When I was 17 I was at a college party, loud music, lots of alcohol flowing, then my friend showed me some white powder he took out of his pocket. We went into a quiet bedroom.. "what is it?" I said. "Cocaine" said James, "You have got to try some, it'll make you feel absolutely amazing!" "Drugs!?!, I don't know, I've never done any drugs." "Don't do it, it's wrong" said the voice of the "friend" behind me.. "Go on!" James said "Stop being such a baby!" So I did it.... Just as I did I heard another scream of pain from the "friend" behind me. I tried to look behind me to see what was happening to him but it was to late the drugs had started to take affect... When I was 21 this guy I had a crush on for AGES FINALLY asked me out! After what seemed like a magical date he took me back to his room at Uni and we started kissing then I felt his hands starting to try to undo my blouse. It was obvious he wanted to take it further. "Errr I don't know, I'm not ready we just had our first date." "I know but we've known each other for a while and I've liked you for ages, I've just been to shy to ask you out." "Well..." I said. "Don't do it." said the voice of the friend behind me. "It's wrong and you're worth so much more." Then Michael said "I wanted to be with you for ages, I really like you. I feel like I'm even falling in love." So I slept with him... As I laid back I heard another scream of pain from the "Friend" behind me. But I pushed it out of my mind. In the subsequent years of my life I came across many situations like these, times when I had the choice to make of right or wrong... Every time I heard the voice of the "Friend" behind me pleading with me to choose right. Every time I chose wrong I heard the screams of pain coming from him. I ignored those screams until one day I couldn't do it anymore, when I heard the scream of pain I turned around and the "Friend" was there all bloodied and wounded with barely enough strength to stand. I let out a shocked cry, the sight was more than I could've ever imagined! I ran towards him, as I got to him he fell to the floor. I held his battered body in my arms. "What happened to you?!" I said, knowing deep down that every scream I had heard through my life related to each of his horrendous wounds. As he explained his voice sounded so gentle and loving. "I love you and you are so precious to me so every time you chose to sin I took your punishment.. And continued to call you and wait for you to come to me.." By this time tears were streaming down my face as I realised the seriousness of my choices over the years. " I am so sorry!" I sobbed repeatedly. " I'm sorry I didn't listen, I'm sorry I didn't turn around and come to you sooner!" "Shhhh" he said "You're here now... These wounds will kill this body but death can not hold me. Now that you've come to me I can dwell with you forever..." He then closed his eyes and disappeared out of my arms. My tears began to cease and it was replaced with a sense of comfort, safety and love. I now acknowledge MY Friend proudly and I hear his voice as he dwells within me guiding me with such mercy and grace.. I am a friend of God He calls me friend.
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