I've Always Loved Him

He looked at me, his eyes looking right through the truth. "I know you better then you think, just tell me". I sighed and just let all the frustration, depression and every other emotion I had been feeling out. "Do you know what it's like to put all your heart and trust in someone. To turn down your friends advice because you want so badly just to be able to trust him, to believe that he loves you enough to not lie straight to your face". I paused, letting out along sigh. "I thought I could change him, I thought if maybe I showed him I cared and was willing to put the time into helping him, he would try...but I was wrong....". I can feel tears start to well up in my eyes, pain and sad memories flood in my emotions. I feel lost, abandoned, used, hurt, and so very depressed. I look up to my best friend, the boy that's never hurt me, the boy that was always there and showed me love more than any other. That's when I realize, it's always been him...I've always loved him...