Sorry For Disappointing

A meaningful life now turns into a clueless existence
Hoping tomorrow i will come back stronger
I'm like a bird in a cage, waiting for another day
Feeling helpless, surrounded by regret and sadness
Yet now there is so much anger in my heart
So I bite my lips to stop from screaming
Now I just let the tears falls instead.
I close my eyes and can feel the burden on my heart
Why am i being judged so harshly?
If I knew how to fix things, to make them better
To try and make you understand, make you believe
If I knew how to make you happy, I would.
Maybe you understanding, wouldn't make me ignorant
And making you believe, wouldn't make me a liar.

I miss the girl that didn't care what you thought
Now I look in the mirror to see a completely different person
I wish no one would blame me for caring, for thinking
I have to live with what I have, what I have to show
Those things will never let me live the dreams
Dreams that I so desperately clung onto, are broken.
But still I try to fix it, collecting the shattered pieces.
So I go every day and throw my doubts behind me
I try to cherish my life, hoping something will happen
But, I find myself letting it waste away.
You come to terms with how far they have gone,
Realize I am not the same as them. I never was.
Pain is the outcome because your sudden remarks,
Just when I was hoping it was getting better,
You come in and make nothing seem right.

Life is like a train it doesn't care
If you climb aboard or not
Either way it is still leaving..