11 June 2012
'Seahorses, hey? I love seahorses.. I really love seahorses.' Ceren said when Eddie replied to her sad muttering of female submission in nature, with 'What about seahorses? You know the female seahorses impregnate male ones and also male seahorses are completely passive?' 'It doesn't have to be that way' he said; 'you don't need to be upset, I am just like you and don't you ever think you are alone!' That made Ceren pull a sparkling smile-she had completely forgotten about the pills she took along with a bottle of Baileys, she wanted to be alive, she was born again. She thought she did, but two weeks after, on her high school graduation day, she was whipping her first batch of macarons and was feeling very sick at her stomach. They were the ugliest thing one can ever see, but he said 'You make them look beautiful eating them.' He said 'Your smile is the most magical thing I have ever seen..' When she told him; she's not going to her graduation, that she doesn't want to do anything, anything at all, that she didn't like how her life shaped around and she wanted to end it.. He looked at her and said blushing; 'Live with me..' to those words Ceren started crying, out of happiness so her words were not heard clearly, 'Yes, I will..' she said, and he was crying too, he wasn't able to believe it, he kept saying; 'Will you?' 'Really?' and they were laughing and crying at the same time together.
Those pills didn't end her life, she survived once more, she went to her graduation. Told her girlfriends about what Eddie just asked her, and her best friends' jaws dropped and told her that they were so happy for her. And they really were..
Ceren, waking up in the morning called him the first thing, he did not reply. He never did.
Ceren,2009 • Opuss № I