dreamerdeceiver
I'll ask you a simple question. When Twitter asked you to 'put up your real name' did you listened? Tell me if you didn't lie when Facebook asked you about the foreign languages you speak? I didn't. I tried not to lie to the 'strangers on …
So I could write fairytales after all, It made me happy what I wrote earlier on, I loved it too much I asked Diane would she be able to believe in a god? She stared at me, and told me I was dumb. Said; you can fool them, not me, not even o…
She could bake dreams, Build paper creatures She had forgotten she could write as well, Only recently she was reminded. And he liked a girl who could sew dreams, knit patchwork lies, and paint grudge, who took comfort in big muscly arms. …
She woke up to another day, well night she never woke after sunlight, it was always dark when she woke up. And she didn't like the dark in the least, would turn up the lights when sun started to come down, in the afternoon at five. So she…
Condoms and the day after pills, do you hate each other that much to not to share a kid? Is it only shallow pleasure? You're ever afraid to spend a lifetime together. This is no pro-life notion, instead I'll remind you of something calle…
Woke up middle of the night, in my dream I was reminded of, the times I had hope, hope that's wasn't hopeless.. I woke in the middle of the night, and cried, 'cause I had the dreams of that dead little girl, she could cry so good, yet she …
From time to time, I wonder; don't people give me any credit, or they're left speechless? I wonder; if there's people empathizing my thoughts, I wonder if there's any women left who feels more than half a human. Wonder if it's worth tryin…
She was too disgusted with men, enough not to touch them. She wasn't a lesbian however, she liked girls but not very often. She was very young when she thought about becoming a dominatrix, it was the exact same reason that put her off. Sh…
Diane.. she pursed her lips seeing the movie poster, she told herself she should put this gagging reflex under control, she wouldn't care the mess, the disgusted looks, but she was done with her teeth falling off. The whereof poster was …
I got a parcel by mail today, two tiny Kawaii bears, one pale white, and one light brown with a green apron, both with pink cheeks upon their proportionally big heads, with patchwork paws, they're cute as a button. Their names to you are h…
Your animal documentaries made me hate the nature. Made up the reason I hate you more than ever.. This is all a carefully planned hypocrisy-missionary operation. You cut the scene when risks occur. Do you have a dog? Is it a boy? Have you…
My world is composed of dreams and an underground wonderland.. There we have teenage girls wasting away, I've surfaced through but stayed. Usually I want to get drowned there again, but it never happens. Starving art school students, the …
Saving money, not from food, but I'm planning to keep my tummy, empty. So when I meet my friend at Italy, I'll be pretty as she, I'll be free. I'll be happy. I need out of this house, need out of this life. Food coloring cannot dye pist…
When you spend 4 years in a hall, an old fat lady in glasses talking about food safety, they call you a gastronome. For now being a chef is something self-acclaimed so I'm free still to call myself one, and wear my apron and chef hat.. Ga…
She got a concert ticket, bought it the minute it was available. Didn't know she was no more the girl to spend hours under her parasol in the queue.. But she knew she would no more allow herself get wasted, for another Mr Superstar There w…
Imaginary friends don't help you zip your dress up, so it takes a little time, leaving the house for the taxi, in a dress skin-tight. The mall doesn't open till 10 am, so it's half an hour, smoking menthol cigarettes, all dry because the c…
I am happy one day a month, and I think that is enough, 14th every month; I got a 750 TL in a credit card; at 4 am, at middle of the night, I don't sleep on 13th and eagerly wait for 4 am. Then I shop online till I doze off. It's the most …
I have a little puppy He's a 7 year old baby. 15th next month is his birthday, I got him a squishy toy, that makes the squeaky sound. Sometimes I don't touch him all day, but he knows I love him. Yet I can never love him or someone else as…
Got a new tube of magnetic nail polish, a pink sparkly receiver for my iPhone and a new Monster High girl, Frankie-Stein. And when I buy the black lacy dress I tried on yesterday, the smallest size the fat salesgirl assumed wouldn't fit, …
Would you believe me if I said; I play with dolls? Don't you already hate me for not fitting in 'my' role? The girl whose unchained breasts you stare absurdly; you're missing on her platform heels with which she will crash you down in pity…
I'm sitting at a lobby sipping on sugar-free coffee I ordered a cappuccino but the guy couldn't figure it out I see.. My dad is always working, he has 96 hours a month to sleep and he rarely does that. This is how we meet; between patients…
When I start crying, and think of leaving to the end of everything, I'll be going. I seem lost in vanity; Do you know I wouldn't hesitate a minute; if it wasn't for my mom and puppy.. When I start crying, I go to the kitchen, start baking…
My dad has a diet of beer and '3 in 1' coffees. We care about each other but we can't really get along together. So we don't meet more often than a couple of weeks. He has a peculiar obsession with 'The Little Prince' and yes anyone can sa…
Mom says I have so much hate within me; that's it's not good; life's too short for it. When a woman writes about rape turning into a love story; name me a reason, to take my head out of the lavatory. I still have dreams where I'm happy; …
I have a little white bag, shaped like a pumpkin with wheels, has windowpanes; in them there is a princess, her pup and a little leprechaun she's in love with. The people see it and get very excited. I start with the beginning of the story,…
Couple of years back, I was always dressed in black; leather, latex and lace. I was young yet; 16-17, the best years I ever had, doesn't matter the depression, starvation; it still had vivid colors, they gone by 'fast'. Die with your boots…
I have an ugly red one, it works like Prozac; y'know the type they say makes you high as clouds, and also it has a side effect; you shop like a maniac. I can say I do feel high when I'm out to shop. One that's supposed to discourage me from…
Call me an attention whore, A drama queen Yes.. I like the attention, don't we all? But I may have an extraordinary excuse, maybe it's not attention after all that I'm bleeding for; I just need a friend that cares and appreciates because I…
I have a twitter account, Why I do is no secret, It's something everyone knows about. Was so weak, so brittle back then, but now; I've grown proud. I had friends back then, But I drew them apart. Once I was the skinny blonde girl, yet I ha…
I realized today that I never actually get bored. I was amazed by the fact 'cause when thought of it it had nothing, was just boring. Then I noticed this, and said 'oh ok, that must be it' ; I might be lonely, but I'm never alone. Ever sin…
I have a little sister She's many many miles away She's just 16, You told her she was old enough, to restrict herself from everything in life, every little thing that she should be proud, to be happy about. Made to believe she'd be rude, i…
I assume You'd call me lost. I thought so too, till I woke from the doubts you-yes you caused. No, I haven't become comfortably numb. Instead I dusted out; the feelings you've numbed. I assume You'd call me obscene, unclean But I think …
I'm pale, I'm light. But not thin enough anymore to be so slight. When I was skin&bones, at least I had the peace of being unrecognized. Yet today, I don't really mind. I have the infamous mary-janes and my tiny black dress, skin tight. So…
Today I learned beautiful pictures are not documentaries of beautiful days.. Because I believe photographs belong to the parallel world daydreams come from, they're beautiful when your hopes are bright. C.
I'm not excited, I'm frustrated. I'm not upset, I'm devastated. C.
Blame me I only like boys when they're immobilized and in bondage. Don't be afraid, no one will ever blame you sir for making bras traditionalized. But I'm not slave, not your slut. I burned all my bras when I realized, I cannot respect …
This is something I scribbled in my diary all dolled up with my Kawaii stickers, well you can't see the stickers obviously-Opuss needs an photo feauture but it's very honest and nice, I think everyone can relate to it one way or another :) …
Laughing at me; telling I play with dolls, That I'm too old to float, too young to fall.. I never hated you my love, for being on the deep end of surrender and calling yourself all grown, Saying you're free, free to throw yourself in front …
My parents are commis, they were quite the rebel in their time.. I've been a chubby hippie, a skinny goth, an emaciated ghost. I never empathized them both. I was sad; hearing the torture and the sexual abuse dad received in jail from co…
Mom looks down on me sometimes because I write in my diary too much. People say I'm immature because I like Kawaii diary stickers, plushies, collector dolls, because I quote Manson too much. They call me a whore because I don't wear bras,…
This, the first letter is written by Diane that wasn't responded, before she became the girl living on the roof of the restaurant she priorly was the chef of; 'I wore that tight black dress of mine today, and my gothic mary-janes, was feel…
They told her to count daisy leaves, He loves me, he loves me not And maybe one day if she's in luck; someone just as well come claim territory of her skies. Then at least she could be proud; for she kept her forests locked, for the dese…
Did she thought she was beautiful in that emaciated body? Or was she just obliged to live in it; well saying that she was alive would be overdoing it, or worse glorifying it but she was breathing, that was enough. As long as she could keep …
'Seahorses, hey? I love seahorses.. I really love seahorses.' Ceren said when Eddie replied to her sad muttering of female submission in nature, with 'What about seahorses? You know the female seahorses impregnate male ones and also male se…
'I feel like I feel a ton; yet people started looking at; like I wear a crown.' 'Not sure I like it though; will pass through this 'pretty phase' indoors.'
'I love how you can't say yeast, your childish ways and your hugs before I leave, but you're flying high on your nargile and weed.. will I be able the abstain myself from your pretty smile's tease?' ' ''You're so pretty, so cute.. I'm impr…
Toffee caught some sea-breeze, he's not eating and Ondine knows he's not fond of fishes, get hold of some biddies to use in all kind of dishes, hoping he eats 'cause her pup being sick gives her a deep grief..
'My fins are not made for typing, but they float like in the sea, my Pull-Apart Bread has Gouda if not Dutch Crunch these days you see..' 'I'm lonely if not moody, or is it just blood and some estrogen taking over me?' 'Snow White can dan…
'You're not a rockstar, you don't even let me smoke in your car, I want a rockstar.' 'So you don't want to take me out for dinner 'cause you don't want to pay; kiss me goodbye I say.' 'Beg me my dear friend; tell me you're never gonna do…
Verna is no witch lady, but Erutàron's fridge filled with Red Delicious, she sure is crafty, Athena tells Ondine don't be moody, still Ondine pictures a ladies room, one lavatory banging and jolty. Ondine chatting with some other girls wit…
'I have swam the Seine, I would swim on the 'surface' with you if only it wouldn't stain my snow white tan.. Nothing left to eat in stock, Painted nails inside her mouth, seems she doesn't know money is not raining from the clouds. Stains…
Ondine speaking out about Erutàron/his choices etc. to her father, Cypreas she is in a hatred. 'Dad's being obscene, obviously he doesn't know it's better being Mobscene* Visuals I don't want to see, he's trying to make me forsee. I don'…
That boy Erutàron strolls, to Ondine seems a troll. Haven't eaten in a week, seeing her feet appearing under the spangles, feel like a crime chewing on a bunch of mosses. Tries to confront herself saying her tail won't pop up after just a…
''Glitter why do you leave me? I need the pink in my cheeks, my sticking out sharp cheek-bones' The menth-breath of Frissons inside her newly black-dotted pink lungs. She thinks about surfacing to inhale more of those thin sticks.. …
A story within, the hardest part of the inauguration; but only a stepping stone and nothing more it should be seen. The character portfolio and the synopsis: 'The tail, the fat.. !! coming wherever I go, chasing me around..'' 'I nee…
She stood at his grave while her fellow warriors crossed another number from the list. ..There was another fireside feast that night. 'Cause moon was full and bright. They knew it gave strength to them to fight. The cheering was loud when…
Staring at the jocks; she rubbed on her stomach and puked on the ground. Was glad for the first time seeing them and not broken and scared for she wanted to get rid of that meal anyway. Muscles,6-pack, abs.. these made her think of pornogra…
The synopsis: This is so unreal, yet it has an undeniable reality in it. It's a story told backwards. About a girl who the world believes; doesn't exist. She's a nightmare to all of you but she's my.. dream.