19 June 2012
I am happy one day a month, and I think that is enough, 14th every month; I got a 750 TL in a credit card; at 4 am, at middle of the night, I don't sleep on 13th and eagerly wait for 4 am. Then I shop online till I doze off. It's the most happiness high I ever get.
Today though.. My dear friend's present arrived. Seeing her happy, something long lost for me arisen; appreciation, appreciation of someone who isn't obliged to, who's not your dad, your mom or pup..
It's been long since someone called me randomly, just to chat, only maybe my aunt. I can see where this is going, a real loser I'll be seemed.
But truly; I'm bleeding for a friend. I've never been alone before, in such a way. I had a sweetheart in kindergarten, was just seven. Never been the popular girl but I had my weirdo friends around me all the way.
Don't know how this(I)'ll end up? Not that I'm home 24/7.. Still can't say I 'meet' more people than the salesgirls/salesboys I see everyday.
Friend • Opuss № I