She Saved My Life (1/ He Chose Me)

It had to be her.
I thought she might care,
She definitely was different, there was something sweet and humble about her.

She was beautiful and she didn't know it, I had to show her that somehow...

Anyway..
Might as well start from the start...
"I'm home!" I yell, my voice echoed through the house. I hoped, that maybe today- maybe it will be different.

No answer..
I guess dad was at work.
My mother was still on her work retreat or something.. No one ever explained it in detail. I miss her, she's been gone for what seems like forever.

I sighed and walked upstairs, I dumped my school bag in the hallway. I walked down the hallway to see if my brother was home; I peeked into his room. "Get lost! I told you not to come in here!"he growled, he was holding a picture- which he shoved under his pillow.
"Are you crying?" I asked, concerned.
"GET LOST!" He yelled.
He jumped off his bed, walked up to me and slammed the door in my face..
I stood there shocked...
I wonder what's gotten into him, recently he'd been so aggressive and moody..
Same for my dad... He was stressed...

I ran to my room, slammed my door and flopped onto my bed.
In no time at all my face was wet, tears puring down my cheeks.
You may think guys don't cry, but trust me. We do.
"Why? Why us?!" I thought.
"It wasn't always like this....

I let my mind wander; back to the happier times... When I believed in ' big happy families' I scoffed at myself. I must have been delusional.
I don't believe... I don't have anything to believe..
I really have no reason to be here.

I thought about my mother.. We were really close.. She was about the only woman/girl I trusted.
Everyone else, they didn't really care about me...

My brother, Sam- he used to really love me. He would always look out for me and we'd have so much fun. I looked up to him back then.

I emptied my mind; trying to think of nothing and be calm. But I kept seeing clouds of red and black.
Anger controlled my thoughts. I hated everything and everyone.
I had 'friends' but all of them left me. They became to 'cool' for me.

But then I found a girl, her name was belle. I thought she was the one, we spent all our time together.
But then, she grew distant, she almost cried whenever she looked at me, I tried to ask her what was wrong-until one day, she said she had to leave.
"I'm moving okay Kyle? There's nothing I can do.our friendships over. " those were the words that broke my heart.

She started totally ignoring me, I was invisible- I heard her laugh and say "Who?" when her friends mentioned my name.
On her last day, her friends were crying and hugging her- "I'll call you everyday!" I heard her say.
She hugged them all and walked straight past me.
And that was the last time I saw Belle.

I can't take it, it feels like everyone's turning against me. Even my brother whom I once adored.

I've been begging my dad to let me transfer schools- he brushes me off these days too.

A car pulled into the driveway, I heard the engine stop. It was Dad.
I wiped away the tears.
I walked downstairs.
"Hi dad" I said smiling hoping he might show some affection.
"Son." he acknowledged.
His eyes were cold and distant. "Whatever you do you can't go into my study tonight, it's a mess. Oh- Abd there is this school, called "Shelby high school" stupid name but you can trial test it on Monday ok?" he said sighing.
"Gee thanks!" I said excitedly. I have to endure another 4 days at this rotten school......