28 August 2012
Since January when she left, I've done some damage to myself and my life. I cut ties with everyone I knew apart from family and today I found out how bad I cut those ties with the outside world, I attended a job class. I walked out I couldn't even talk to the people in there, I've never felt so uncomfortable. Since January all I've done is turn myself into a hermit. Destroyed my life and for what? Just some girl. No one's worth that. Its taking me so long to fix it, I'm begging to wonder if I even can. It's hard. before when I've gone off the rails, in a matter of weeks I'd turned things around, I don't know why it's taking me so long this time. I've lost every ounce of faith in myself, every ounce of confidence too, I don't know what to do anymore I just feel like a joke. The only thing I've got out of the last 8 months is I'm happier than I was, but there's a lot of work that needs doing, and I'm starting to think I'm just not up to the job.
Come So Far, Got So Far To Go • Opuss № I