Promises To My Older Self

"I promise I've learned my lesson this time and this isn't just my feelings playing on repeat. That I won't repeat the cycle when you free me and I start again because I know that circles never end, but I promise this is it for me telling you this story again. I promise not to drag you through the mud in the middle of the night, begging you to just trust me one more time. I promise to listen less to my heart and more to my mind. To not let one overrule the other and to pay attention to all the warning signs..and the stops signs..and to pray at every crossroad and listen to your directions and not just mine. I promise to admit when you're right and not convince myself that you're just holding the reign of responsibility too tight. I promise to thank you for your experience saving me lessons learned because I honestly don't need extra helpings of headaches and heartburn--so please keep your plates of 2nds and 3rds. I'm full of it and I don't mean the same shit because these promises of mine are not empty you see--they are a completely revised, "the best has yet to come," version of me. And I promise you this time, you'll like what you see and when you look back on your life, you'll be proud to claim the part that is me. I promise you."
-mcapria