Thank You

All this while something was wrong.
It hurt more than ever to be gone.
I left iPuss...
Deserted Stablish for the very first time.
Wasn't right for Ell.
And it hurt more than ever.

Thank you for letting me free,
Though it hurt more than ever,
For you and me.
You let me be...
Gave me wings, made me see...

After losing what I never thought I possessed
Now i know.
My family is right here.
No matter how silly or fun or casual we are,
In me, I feel a connection a lot more far.
It is you who come when I can't sleep,
Your silly jokes,
Or - cute little actions -
And our amazingly diverse factions.
You come and say that I belong here.
That you would miss me if I am gone,
That you would realize if I was lost.
That even if I stop writing,
And cried instead everyday...
You would be there...
Tell me reassuring words...and just stay...

Thank you for being strong when I was gone.
I asked too much, I know it was wrong.
Im sorry,
For not being there when I should.
That i didn't help when I could.

You took the world on your shoulders for me,
Laughed while your body died with the pain.
Smiled and asked if I needed a hand,
And I, the fool, just stood by and said 'Yes'.

Without you I am an empty shell.
You set me free,
You filled me up.
And I came back...
So that must mean I really love you.

I remember , it was night ...
On a bed facing the ocean, wide and mighty.
I was scared...
That all my wisdom and forethought was just hopeful imagination.
A dream came up...
I am sitting at the iPad typing out an Opuss,
Stablish comes up on Kik, and we discover something new.
iPuss pounces on and claws my head...
Ell looks at me with her eyes, so sweet.
Then I know,
It doesn't matter how small all these thing are.
They are what drive me.
The fact that I will be missed,
That someone willl miss me when Im gone.
That someone will wait for me to be back,
And keep my alive, till then.