Staying True

I have always stayed true to my girlfriend, even though we have been on and off these past few months.
Lately though, I am finding it hard. With all the beautiful girls in this hotel, I'd love to try my luck with some of them. Nothing would probably happen, it never does for me, but even if it did I'm never going to see these girls after this holiday, so what harm could it do?

I'm just finding it hard to sit alone and see these girls sunbathe, frolick in the water and not think about what I'd 'like to do to them'.
I feel bad about thinking like that, but I can't help it. I honestly think I'd need the thrill of being with another girl once before I can put this thinking away.