18 December 2012
heartbeat uneven smiles deceiving I'm not here for the love I'm too high above above you above this I don't want romance just a kiss emotionless robot manipulating until I get what I want just an act, insecure front I'm not dead I'm alive and breathing my cold words can be deceiving guarded tall walls protecting my insides no one allowed in instead I just lied empty I love you's rehearsed lines repeated I love you I love you when all I want to do is use you all I ever wanted was your touch but usually that comes with a price too much I've been through this a million times love's a routine of mine I have it to a science I can't really explain it's the only thing I have left fear of feeling pain turn off your emotions turn to darkness turn to seduction turn to manipulation crowded with what I want still lonely in pain first kisses were the last kisses we'd go too far in my bed in a car I've done some bad stuff I've done some bad I've done I'm done she's come around picked me up off the ground with one little glance my emotions turned on she's more than what I've done she's not just a target she can't be won she has an old soul she's hard to read she's so relaxed not full of greed she trusts me why why would she trust me I don't trust myself I'm scared she doesn't know me like everyone else don't buy into the hype what if the hype is right what if I'm that type I am the type to hurt she whispered to me "don't break my heart" I feel good about this been different from the start I'm not about caring I'm not about sharing but around her my front erodes it's exhilarating I feel like I was born again another chance to live but I'm so scared of the old me creeping on to our perfect scene
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