11 December 2012
just because it's a cliché doesn't mean it can't happen
everyone in this business is lonely
acting like the one at home is enough
this type of life makes you rough
to have no emotions and feel no guilt
it seems freeing
but it's worse
you're missing a part of yourself
you're missing yourself
my reflection. isn't me
this isn't me
what have I become
I woke up to this day
I woke up this way
when did it happen
it happened so subtlety
over time
but now I see what's the result
it's right in front of me
the reflection
it's me
it's not me
it's me
who is it if it isn't me
what is wrong with me?
I feel lonely
so I manipulate others
I don't believe love exists
yet I still want it.
I don't like happy endings
but I want one
I can't pick
I can't decide
I hate choosing just one
I want a game changer
someone to consume my life
someone to show me I have feelings
someone to manipulate me
I don't want to fool everyone into finding me attractive
I want them to think I am with out me trying
I want them to have the control and the power
I want to be on my toes
no one can do this
no one has yet
I've let a lot of people in
too many to admit
the game's just started
I want him to shake me up
make me feel emotions
I haven't felt emotions since they prescribed me to Prozac
I can't cope
I'm all doped up
I'm all cooped up
no one is stimulating
I just run around stealing people away
hoping they'll be enough at the end of the day
I'm young
I'll wait
no I won't
I'll keep looking for you
my reflection isn't me
I don't believe in love
but I still want it
the only way to win the game is to leave it
someone take me out of this manipulating gamble
I want a guy to turn my brains to scramble
cliche • Opuss № I