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and it's just become a blurry mess
nothing to escape from
but there's still stress
how can I end this
when I keep reassuring no end
but it all ends
sooner or later
always sooner with me
always later with them
always a disagreement
but they're always understanding
always think they'll change me
you can't change me
it won't happen
I wish it would
fuck I wish it would
but it won't
can't
doesn't happen
nothing happens
ever
we're dating
it's just a label
nothing else
no affection
no hand holding
no kissing
no cuddling
just missing
missing something that was never there
something that won't ever be there
and you don't find it fair
and I don't care
and we're stuck together
as a default
I don't want to be single
you like me
I don't dislike you
guess that means I like you
the middle ground has been ripped out from under me
I can only like you
or dislike you
I don't know you well enough to dislike you
that leaves the latter
just go with it
default
if not that
I have my fall back
when I'm coming down
I have you
as solid ground
always around
hide your frown
I'll break you down
you don't make a sound
I'll get around
you'll stay the same
thinking you're the one to blame
trapped
trapped
trap