ever there

backseat of his mom's car after wandering downtown,
only let me get close to him when people weren't around.
he said he liked me.
I said I liked him.
didn't realize what I just trapped myself in.
days went by.
so happy and high.
shared our first kiss,
consumed by pure bliss.
he met my family.
he met my gaze.
his green eyes lasting days.
memories walking from his house to mine,
holding hands in the sunshine.
jumping on the trampoline late at night,
he'd stay in my bed with me until sleep seemed alright.
he tucked me in,
gave me a goodnight kiss,
then went home for the night.
my life with him fit just right.
everyday for a week we were together.
scary realization we might be trapped forever.
but I was trapped just like the rest,
turns out he made me second best.
her long brown hair and her mismatching eyes,
sitting there alone realizing his lies.
all along he had her stuck floating,
all along his eyes were roaming.
I feel bad for her sometimes,
buying all his rehearsed lines.
he's so unreliable and can't stay still.
stealing souls for the thrill.
messy brown hair,
the boy who wasn't ever there.