helmet

drugs
shaved heads
middle fingers
piercings
fuck yeah
I'm so cool
but not when no ones looking
I hate myself
the way I look
the way I am
when I'm not acting
I want to be cool
but it's all me pretending
I told people lies
lies
I have never had sex with a guy
I'll say it
I'll mean it
no one believes it
so I started to say I have
what a stupid lie
what a popularity cry
cry for help
when I don't need it
I just need to like who I am
when no one is looking
I need a life plan
if I care
if I try
I can get what I want
which doesn't have to be getting high
I don't need to drink
and I don't need to smoke
just a funny movie
and a diet coke
my mom and I spoke
she yelled at me for shaving the bottom half of my hair
at first I was
whatever I don't care
but as she continued
my mind got there
it's not about what they think
it's about what you think
be cool
be cool for yourself
and if no ones embarrassed
and no one is themselves
what's left
copies of a template
and empty template
with no helmet