I don't want that

what if I don't want to be your one and only
what if I don't want forever
I want to go outside
I want to see the sun
I want to be alone
I want space
time and space
only time will tell
no it won't
I'll tell you
fuck time
it's a timed game
event that has score
no one can keep their head up
the sun is too bright
it kills my eyes
kill my eyes
attack me
take me
burn me into ash
ash will blow away
wind carries my ashes far away
don't go astray
my thoughts wander
I can't stay still mentally
physically I can't move
what is the point
I spend the weekend waiting for the week
most spend the week waiting for the weekend
I like being busy
I'm always busy
I like someone else wasting my time
instead of me killing to fill my time
full time
no time
some people can just be
I have to do
I have to go
I can't stand still
let me go
I don't want to be your forever
I'll be your in the moment
and you'll be my warm body
you're nothing
you're nothing more than a warm body
I'm going to leave