13 December 2012
floor of the classroom
they're all taking exams
stressed
overwhelmed
break me free of their hell
I should take the exam
I should cram
I need to learn
I need to stop
stop
what am I doing here
what the hell am I doing here
under the radar
living the minimum amount needed
survival is easy
living is a burden
I've spent my whole life living
look where I am
on the floor
neglecting my exam
fuck you school
I can learn from the voices in my head
the ones that stay with me
up until bed
I can't help it
my brain is scattered
everything I want
gold platter
gold standard
low standards
I'll take what I can get
not here for the friends
not here for love
here for the top
to reach above
don't touch me
you don't know me
no one knows me
especially me
that's the hard part about not knowing yourself
you can be easily distracted
by the false hope
the false hope of stumbling upon who you are
who you are
doesn't seem so far
who you are
bottle of rum and a scar
who you are
isn't too far
just have to know where to look
get your head out of that book
look
search
find what you need
purge
pounds of bullshit
127
used to be 100 flat
where'd it come from
covered in fat
sit ups
push ups
sweat and tears
not fitting in
logical fear
but it's unclear
because fitting in
is also
the universal fear
test • Opuss № I