27 August 2012
so it begins, again.
lemme rewind,
Emma: my cousin. innocent and very impressionable.
Lexi: old family friend. open minded and raised to rebel.
we became a team of fuckers.
I was the ring leader.
"sleepover Friday. my house. bring money."
we'd stock up on toilet paper. we'd get high. we snuck out. we ran from the cops once. we were reckless. and to this day we are all regret less as well. so i got caught. kicked out of school. big time isolation. I didn't talk to anyone for months. Emma and Lexi stopped being bad. I was the only way they could truly be bad anyway. we kinda grew out of being bad. been there done that sorta thing. we still all hang out and laugh at our old crazy times. we still have fun, just a little more behaved. but I met a girl Saturday. chloe. she is the definition of innocent. she dresses preppy and wished she didn't. she is bi, but hasn't told a soul. I told her I was bi. I tell everyone. I'm open. I'm loud. she's quiet. she's envious. we roller bladed. (if you guys are hoping for some hot gay story, sorry, not one. yet c;) we were with another girl. andrea. she was a goody two shoes all a's making girl. she liked me though. they both thought I was cool and said they both like freaked out when I asked to hang out with them. adorable; eh? so we went to chloe's house. we sat around. she had a sick collection of books. ones I read. meaning she had a soul like mine. dark. twisted. reckless. waiting to crack open and erupt. the three of us watched dazed and confused. my top movie pretty much. then we started talking about nothingness. chloe pulled out a bucket list and showed it to me. "party, graffiti, smoke a cigarette, carve her name in a tree". random shit that girls would want to do. I immediately thought of old times. how fun it would be to do those things at five in the morning with Emma and Lexi. so I tell them the story. we're back to being crazy and stupid. with a new girl to raise hell with. this weekend we'll be crazy again. just like we used to. just like we used to.
used to be; repeat • Opuss № I