How Did Your Mum Die?

Asking personal questions is always a bit risky. You are, after all, venturing out of the safe realms of small talk into sensitive topics you can only share with someone you trust significantly.

"I'd rather not say." You said.

I'm ok with the refusal, I didn't really expect an answer. Of course it is not a nice topic, it is very sad when someone dies. And that is an understatement.

I've known people to commit suicide before, my mum's best friend did and my friend has tried in the past. It is a horrible thing to think about, how someone can feel so lost, or so trapped, that death is the only release...

I can't help but wonder if this is the answer to my question.

There is no shame in suicide.
I will not judge, I don't have that right.

So why did I ask?

I only know that she was searching throughout her whole life, that relationships were lost, that much was discovered. Perhaps it wasn't enough.