This chaotic rain keeps on falling.
It hurts me, I'm one big bruise
I'm down on my knees, crawling.
Inside me, a bomb, ignite the fuse.
Run me over with a car.
Or with a speeding train.
Hit me with an iron bar.
Pain. Pain. Pain.
The pain, it's so freaking comforting.
Hit me, kick me, show me I'm alive.
It makes me wanna run, scream, sing.
My reason to live, my drive.
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"Here i am again, head full of hectic, once again so easily i forget this, my face has eroded from the tears over all these years , feel my presence in my entrance, hallow to all surroundings, and...
Cut it out and tear me down like violent scenes in a horror film. I said nothing like that to you, and smiled all the time, But your guilt stained hands touch my head with the sights.
You try and make me cry. But what if my eyes are dry. You try and make me feel low. But what if i’m so low. You can’t bring me down anymore. You try and point out all my flaws.
If only the pain would go. So that I could feel normal. People passing by don't seem to notice. If only the pain would go. Returning me back to the way I was. I don't want to feel like this anymore.
#Household It's time to put the knife away, It's time to live another day. It's time for me to recognise, That this knife holds a thousand lies.
There is a pain she feels inside When people say she's strong Imagine if they knew the truth...
Most of the time. I am never happy. You can't see this in me. I smile a lot. When im not even happy. I smile because im crazy. I smile because im insane. I smile because im in pain.
I just wanted you to hear me say That that fake smile you wore today, Made me think back to a life; Of tired lies and empty strife.
@Irrational_Kimmi @ckahn Thank you both! And I'm sorry to say it's true in a way. But I don't cause myself damage so don't worry ❤
@ckahn I don't know how to put this so you won't think I'm a maniac. Mostly I feel alive when I feel pain. In a way I go looking for it. So it's my own choice. Why I am like this I don't know. Guess nothing else ever made me feel alive. Sorry for just blabbing away.. ❤
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