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The smell of alcohol. From your breath. Again. I want to disappear. Again. I want to scream, cease to exist, tear myself apart. Again. I have to escape. This labyrinth. From myself. From the smell. Vanilla. Cigarettes. I hate you. I hate y…
Another love Same place Different feel Different face Another joy Same heart Different blood Different start Another spring Same fall The breaking of Another wall Other feet In the grass Another time I'm fragile glass Different night…
I turn in the most ungracious way and see her standing there in the hallway, looking at me. Staring straight through what's left of my cold, petty soul. It burns, the way hot sand burns your feet. I can't stand still anymore. That poundin…
The other day I saw a girl with so much blood in her face. Gravel in her mouth and a dead look in her gaze. And still we dare call ourselves the human race. I don't want to be human, it's a fucking disgrace. I could see that her once happ…
When you're feeling low. Smudge that makeup on. All your little problems. Soon they will be gone. Perfection you must reach. Or you will not fit in. You mustn't weight that much. You mustn't be that thin. You'll give us all your money. We…
Merely fractions Of when All the actions Spoke louder Than lies Causing Midnight cries To burn Like love do I hate it But I miss you So much I'm fading away I don't Need you to stay It's withering The flowers Remember The latest hours We w…
This music These headphones They've like, grown Into my bones I free my soul I lose my mind Shivers race Down my spine More than music Or moving air You see me But I'm not there I lose myself in the music I want to break free I am Lucy…
What the stars gave The earth took I watched As the sun Dried Snow went pitch black Darkness turned Into light As the world Died Time stopped forever Red like fire When The forrest Fell It has become Hell on earth Or earth In Hell It al…
In a lost town you will find. A boy who never spoke his mind. The boy that no one ever heard. He only said a single word. Everything was left unsaid. Locked up inside his head. He was left alone to rot. A boy the world forgot. No one e…
Escape This shell Need life Want love Crave hell The world Turn it around Live between The silence The sound Crawl out Of this Feel her Her touch Her kiss Dry it up My soul Be broken And Be whole Body melts Like snow Always knew Deep in…
Different letters. Different years. Same place. Same tears. But I do not hurt. I don't get cold. I do not feel. It's getting old. Special day. Still the same. "Thank you, Glad you came". Give me nothing. Or give me joy. Supposed to be ma…
Eyes that are so pretty. Though I see it in your stare. Behind your fancy clothes. And in your darkened hair. You carry all these secrets. They're killing you inside. From your inner demons. You have no place to hide. You want to shout it…
See me as I am drowning in the rivers of life. Look into my empty eyes and wash me up on the shores of surrender. Hold me tightly from when the stars appear until they no longer cast their light upon the Earth. Take my trembling hands in y…
A thousand pieces from the scattered door. Laying all across the bloodstained floor. Drawers where she kept her deepest secrets hid. Dark memories from when she was a kid. Drawers thrown across the smokey room. The air clogged up with th…
The road of heavy hearts. The house of broken dreams. The children as they cry. Behold her as she screams. Some faces just look empty. Some are filled with pain. They don't know what to do. Their prayers are in vain. A picture of a milli…
Four years. Four years of sleepless nights, silent screams and everlasting nightmares. Dreams of us. Still climbing trees and feeling small as we watch the stars from the roof of your house. Dreams where the world is still innocent. So fuck…
He had Brown hair Perfect soul Golden heart He has Vacant stare For has been Torn apart He feels No joy Lack of silver Lack of gold To be Her boy The world He sold To love He fears What it Might be She cries No tears He cries A sea S…
A very dark winter night Over thirty years ago Was walking by himself In the newly fallen snow Two lights approached Too fast for him to see Red stains hit the trees At once he ceased to be Appears when it gets dark You know that he is …
Show your love Reel me in Don't make it end Let it begin Pick me up Throw me away Just like trash But it's okay It strangles me Your golden hair I cannot breathe I get no air Beneath the sheets I shed a tear You do not see You do not hea…
Snow slowly falls onto the frozen street. And once again the world is still. Always moving but so very still. And my life passes me by as I lay there, frozen. I can't run away anymore. Can't scream. Can't hide. It haunts me. I want to run a…
If this man could he would sail to and feel the sun. Just by leaving home, the battle of his dreams he had won. But lurking in the shadows there're no butterflies and rainbows. There hide things with fifteen eyes and twenty toes. Strong…
Children run with bare feet over dewy fields of green grass. Mothers will watch them sail away as time will pass. The dream of every young boy, to be a great warrior. None of them could ever wish to live for more. Except for this one very…
A lady who dreams of taking the step out the big wooden door. She doesn't have anything in particular to live for. For ten years she has slept under the same dull stars. Locked away behind a million golden bars. In the same room, resting …
Rob the white had a very, very bad habit. He was a blood thirsty, meat eating, heart wrenching rabbit. At night you must watch your back Or the white creature will attack You see his big red eyes, it has begun You can not hide, you must r…
Lack of lights Comfort me Sleepless nights I do not see Tuck me in Hide it all Tear my skin Let me fall Fear the day Love the dark Go away Leave no mark Water drops Down my spine Heart it stops All the time Hear no song Life in pain Ta…
White lines for sadness and sorrow. Blue pills for never ending joy. No one ever gives a shit. If you're a man or boy. Always the money. It's all for the wealth. You can sniff it or shoot it. Fuck their life and their health. Look outsid…
In darkness I linger. Your dreams I eat. Not made of tissue. Nor of meat. In nightmares I lurk. On screams I feed. No soul I have. Pure fear I breed. I'll tell you a secret. I don't like being me. I want to pick flowers. I want to be free…
Lonesome woman. Whispers into thin air. Wearing torn clothes. Matching torn hair. Nighttime screams. Slowly tears apart. What still remains. Of her dreary heart. Lacking happiness. There is just pain. Blood stained walls. Pitch black rain…
I'm a hermit crab without a shell. A traveler with nowhere to go. A salesman with nothing to sell. I'm a winter without snow. I'm a guitar without its strings. A window facing brick walls. A bird that lost his wings. I'm unanswered evening…
World is cruel. It ain't scary. Fear is just. Imaginary. Behind bars. Of darkness. All alone. More or less. Mentally. I cut my wrist. I ask myself. Do I exist? I hide myself. Behind the pain. Who am I? Am I insane? I do not cry. I si…
Take a needle Find your vein Stick it in Feel no pain Feeling down? Have a line Within minutes You'll be fine Numb your soul Once again Close your eyes Count to ten Not so bad Just some fun End your life Then try to run Got it wrong You…
Caressing your cold back, making you shiver as my hand travels up your cold spine. Making you smile widely in your tiredness. Eyes still closed. The butterflies going mad in my stomach as I see your face. Butterflies with razor sharp wings.…
Blue eyes and frizzy hair You tightly hold your teddybear Tiny toes and cheeky grin Always kiss me cheek and chin Cute dress and gooey face You light up this dreadful place Someday you'll be a princess Someday you'll wear a wedding dres…
How about coming over to my house? Nothing special of course. I could come meet you at your place before the darkness sets in. By your window, waiting, you'd be. Then you'd spot me coming over the snow covered hill and come running with a s…
Kicks and a punch Marks and bruises After dinner and lunch Consciousness looses Ropes and wire Tied to a pole Hurts like fire Burns the soul Flesh apart Lemons and lime Burning heart One more time Rum and beers Tunnel of white Blood and …
Next to me. The warmth of you. Sleeping beauty. Resting peacefully. If only you knew. You frighten me. You chill me to the core, Tear me apart. Then you set me free. Because you hold my heart I always come back for more. Unconditionally.
I'm grasping for air but there is none. Once again This fucking emptiness has won. The battle of worthlessness. Simple. I'm nothing, I confess. Shadows I embrace. It's still clear. I can still see that haunting face. The face of no one. Fr…
Under the sheet Lovers meet Lost people Swept from their feet Blue twisted places Unknown faces Lost people That the mind erases Pretty little stars Speeding cars Lost people Left with hurting scars Shot seven times Committing crimes Los…
Looking out your fogged up window, where the autumn leaves fall. Slowly, towards the fogged up ground, coloring the concrete wall. Orange evening skies and heavy raindrops. The overwhelming feeling when the heart stops. 20 inches away y…
The stench of dead souls Rotting dreams Withering goals Sound of nothing is all around Screaming from beneath A billion bodies in the ground Shadows eating what still is Poisoning the blood Killing with a kiss Embedded in a sea of grey …
How many times will a man fly Before he crashes to the ground and dies? How many times can a lion roar Before his throat goes dry and soar? How many times will a fire burn Before I stop loving it so much and learn? How many times must on…
One night Amie snuck out after bedtime to watch the pretty night sky. She tiptoed down the stairs as quietly as possible. Her heart clenched when a loud creak escaped beneath her tiny feet. Amies mother did not hear this so Amie continued d…
Every night just before three year old Amie closed her eyes and fell asleep her mother would sing a lullaby. "Sleep now my dearest love. What I treasure most is you. Dream of a pretty white dove. Soaring in the sky so blue. Don't fear the …
She can't breathe anymore. Struck by beams of light. Reaching for the door. Vacancy of the night. Trying to scream. Trying to get away. From this light beam. She's caught, she must obey. Together, hand in hand. The night away they slowly …
On the train again. Alone again. The lights flicker as I stare at all these objects created by man for our comfort. Meaningless, unimportant. Just like me. As I used to be at least. When I still had my own values and views. When my dreams a…
The helpless sound of fear running past. Run. Run. Run. Fast. A ruthless laughter in the foggy air. Running. Screaming. Pain. Despair. Cries from children, blood dripping. Pulling. Tearing. Flesh. Ripping. No need to run or fight. You. W…
Could I stay here forever? Please? Just lay here. Where you cuddle yourself in at night. Where you slowly, fearlessly drift in to sleep. Protected, like a mother protects its child. Protected by the sheets. Ones that smell of you. Don't…
If an apple hits you in the head. It most likely fell from a tree. Probably you know this though. It's the physical law of gravity. Of course this famous one too. The energy equals the mass times the speed of light squared. This is a fun o…
I could tell you the earth is flat. And I promise you'd believe me. You wouldn't have a doubt. I'm good at what I do, you see. All people are nice, Love is easy and the sky is green. Just truths, no lies. If you are sad, on me you can lean…
We spread our wings, fly so high. Listen to my racing heartbeat. Feet on the ground, head in the sky. Grass tickling our bare feet. Running til legs won't carry us. Under the moon, so vivid and bright. Inside, a growing warm fuzz. Give in,…
This chaotic rain keeps on falling. It hurts me, I'm one big bruise I'm down on my knees, crawling. Inside me, a bomb, ignite the fuse. Run me over with a car. Or with a speeding train. Hit me with an iron bar. Pain. Pain. Pain. The pai…
A hollow kiss on these fake lips Vacant hands on your fake hips An empty stare into your fake soul Fake dreams and fake goals Relying on that fake touch For no words, you fake much Laying alone in your fake bed What the hell goes on in …
A bird can't be in a cage It will keep on existing But die at young age Try take the bird away It will cry It will beg to stay It imprisons despite will No dreams allowed This place, it's in for the kill A bullet through the brain Could…
Again the world is grey. Alone by myself I lay. On this bed of sharpened knifes. Thinking of the loss of lives. Whishing to live forever. This will happen, never. Immortality is just a simple lie. Memento mori. Remember you must die.
A lost face In a lost place Stuck in a maze A closed door Can't take it anymore The silence of a lions roar Another fight Black, lack of light White, white, white
A man sees two children. Two children whom have never seen much of the world. Two children, abandoned, alone in the cold winter night. Just as everybody else he walks past them. Carelessly. Coldheartedly. Amie and John. That's what their m…
Wrap me up in white silk. Hide me. So the world I will not see. The lingering fear, it revolves. It's all around. Quiet. Don't make a sound. Be not what you desire. Or the fear you will awake. Be absolutely nothing or be fake. All flowers …
Oh the irony Of what you are Of what you used to be You meant the world to me I told myself over and over you were bad Perhaps only cause you taught me hate You made me sad It's so weird, so close yet so far Sitting on the same bus There …
It's so wrong, seeing him there. Laying in a bed that isn't his. Breathing air that isn't his. Surrounded by walls that aren't his. Walls of death. Why do they paint the walls in this color? Every thing about them tells me this is a place w…
The distant cry A larva, longing To be a butterfly The sorry flicker of a fire No longer casting shades Longing to burn higher The baby angel, desperately sings Songs about sadness Wishes for wings The little bird also sings her song Son…
Since she was only five She's been used to a punch or a kick She feels it's a privilege to be alive Because she is fatally sick Even though her time has a limit she does not grief She gives lost people some hope and belief She sees beauty …
I watch as if in a trance Explosions burning in the starlit night Shining brighter than the sun Majestic music playing in the sea of light My blood goes warm, it rushes through me As the crowd sings, we dance in ecstasy I hold you, tigh…
I run for my life but I seem to go nowhere I wish I could grow some wings and fly She put chains on me with just her stare She holds me back, she won't even let me try She's so addictive, I am desperately hooked Poisonous, not as innocent …
The moon covered by nighttime fog The distant howling of a restless dog The hollow scream of a helpless man. The disappearing of a dark blue van. Creatures lurking in the dead of night. Creatures dressed entirely in white. An old man ou…
This girl, with a stare so empty it drills a hole straight through me, who is she? The world she does not see in the same way. She looks shattered. Torn. As if she struggles to survive every single day. As if she regrets she was ever born…
I walk on the sidewalk to the total absence of sound. The penetrating quietness leaves much unknown. No questions are answered while the world sleeps. Occasionally though, a piece of gravel crunches beneath me, setting molecules in motion,…
How many people pass by in a day? From how many of them you walk away? So many lives we'll never get to know. The story of their life, people easily won't show. Ever stopped to think for a while? Over there, see that guy? What's the reason…
I've always been sure of who I am. Until just about a year ago I considered myself a lion, not a lamb When my mind you came to blow. You make my heart beat at astounding speeds. By far you fulfill my all my hopes and needs. Even though I…
Oh come on, you think I don't hear? Your so transparent it makes me ill. I know the things you say when I'm not near. You try to make them obey your will. You can try. But facing me you'll regret. I am already a thousand miles ahead. Im …
In your arms you hold the stars and the sun Therefore you shall never cease to run. For if you cease to run, the eternal sea of everything, will be none. You are a star that will blow up soon. You are the sky, you are the moon. You are …
I stare at my wall. Why I don't know. It's not like it's fun or so. Maybe it's because of hurt feelings. Or I just got tired of staring at ceilings. I now stare at the stars in the sky. And as many times before, I ask myself why? Why do…
Another evening fight. Another"I'm wrong your right" It's become a habit. She swings her arm at him. He will grab it. He will win. This time she is wrong. Within seconds he is gone. Caught in the vicious crossfires. No room for my desires.…
In the valley of despair she lost her soul and ripped her hair. She cried for years, fifteen in fact. Incredibly, she was still intact. One day in the bath she made it flood. Partly tears and partly blood. She hoisted the sails and saile…
In the beginning of life as I know it I asked you something that changed me. I asked you what your dreams were. You told me "I have only one. To live a simple life, grow old with a man I love and at the end of my life, run a small chocolate…
All alone with my thoughts on the cliffs I sit. The sun just set, one half of the moon is lit. As lonely as a tree only in company with the wind. I lay down, watching the stars fade in. All these feelings wash over me. I realize, am n…
One rose I put beneath you last valentines day. Then I opened my wings and flew away. I said to you I love you so much. I love your voice I love your touch. You wrote on a paper and gave it to me. "I can not love you, we can not be. …
This is a plain little story. Not of grief nor of glory. This is the story of a little lost boy. Who searched the world, looking for joy. One day it just disappeared. He was brave though, nothing he feared. The world he soon had trave…
His hand caressing her collarbone as they lay on a hill next to an old tree under the starlit sky. Her light shiver, caused by something as simple as the thought of him, shines of innocence. She closes her eyes knowing that she is safe in …
Creatures without souls lurk in the everlasting darkness of every life on earth. They wait for their chance to devour us, making us a part of them. These are the people we love the most. These are the people who affect us. These are the…
The warmth of summer rain. The total lack of internal pain. A hug, a long embrace. These arms around me, this beautiful face. She loves me it seems. It's always the same. No love, only dreams.
It is said that after rain comes sunshine. Rain never pours down and thunder never make the heavens tremble. I am never reminded of that I am alive. Occasionally a drop of water drips down into my shirt and runs scornfully down along my sp…
The Diamond sword. Owned by the evil lord. Thousand iron shield's that never yield A battle of fire and ice. The shredding of human lives. Memories, since long forgotten. Left in the attic, left to rotten. A box, all covered in dust. O…
A stranger Dancing in the rain In red shoes of silk Washing off the pain A stranger I saw the other day Running so fast Drifting away A stranger Walking barefoot over fields of glass The tickling of dewy grass A lifesaver, a game chang…
I fear that my children won't get to know my grandpa, the man who taught me what life is about.
One of my deepest fears is that my father won't be there long enough to walk my sister down the aisle when the time comes.
As bringing joy to the girl that never got a dance. As gaining trust in the friend that never got a chance. As blowing dust of the book you never gave a glance. I'm starting over.
Never will one find a person as innocent and genuine as a child. For there the world has not yet judged.
I believed you kept the darkness from reaching me. When really, you were the darkness
I stare at the ceiling Silence Water dripping Silence People screaming Silence
The lion, majestically striding back and forth in its cage, hungering. The flower, swaying in the wind, lost, longing. The bird, stuck in time, forced to fly in circles, yearning.
This freaking heartache What does it take For it to end? Sure, I'm seventeen But that doesn't mean I can't be torn Try having it all taken away, every time, everyday It isn't easy It's worse It's thistles and thorns It's a painful, lingeri…
Dancing I the moonlight Forever you said Watching the sunrise Forever you said Singing sweet melodies Forever you said Seeing you walk away My forever is dead
Fire is beautiful. But fire does burn. Touch fire and it hurts you will learn. Choose my friend, choose wisely and fast. For the flames of fire long does not last.
Run For your life Run For they are coming Run For you cannot hide Run Or you will die
Happiness and sorrow exist in relation to each other. They are interdependent. The more sorrow a man has felt, the happier he can become.
I'm falling. The ground, coming closer and closer. I never reach it. Stuck between what is calm and what is chaos. I don't want to be stuck. Please give me chaos.
Silhouettes, dancing as the sun go down, creating nothing but shapes, moving slowly as the wind gently rocks them to sleep. No colors, no details. Only the contrast of black in the orange sky.
I envy you. I envy you because you're happy. You made me choose. I chose what was right, even though it was torturing me. For that I am lonely. I am being punished for not doing the wrong thing. You are happy.
Ever thought about trying to explain colors? We all know what the color red is. Explain it. Well, it is red. As that car over there. But what if my red really is your blue and someone else's yellow? Have you ever thought about that?
Once there was a girl named Leah. She was lonely, so very lonely. Her mother never let her see anyone. She said that the world is evil. Leah lived alone with her mother in a small house in the woods. She was beautiful. Utterly, stunningly…
Darkness. All I saw was darkness. I was slowly dying on the inside. You became my guardian angel, my savior. You showed me the beauty in life. You blew me away, moved me. I was isolated from everything that hurt me. I was safe. I could brea…
I would kiss you, slowly, gently. I would sing for you if you can't sleep. I would hold you close, watching the stars. I would take you to see the world. I would be your everything. If you would just let me.
Throughout the years the capacity of our mind is greatly decreased. We are taught new things. Smartness is measured in how much we know. We lose most of the ability to think in different kind of ways. As we gain we lose. That is why, I be…
Fear is a seed we put in soil. We water it and give it sunlight. Eventually it grows to be a tree. When it's young we are in control. Once it has big green leaves it embraces us, we are caught. The Fear is free.
Have you ever tried listening to a ridiculously happy song when everything feels dark? Try it. Either it makes the song sad or you walk around, smiling at everything like a maniac. People will look like questions marks and you will smile e…
Everyday on my way to school I see this one guy on the train. He looks the same as everyone else. There is something slightly different thought. Something that separates him from the crowd. Something small, but yet so powerful. He simply sm…
Just as before we went out early in the morning, father and son, to the nearby field where our mighty oak rested upon the hill. The swing was still there. I sat down, you started pushing. I swung as the sun rose over the horizon. I would …
I love playing guitar, I love playing piano, I love singing and I love writing. I hate nature science. I am reading the nature science program. Hello I am stupid. What is your name?
The stairs creeks beneath my feet. My heart is beating even faster now. I'm scared, but I don't know why. Maybe I'm afraid that the truth is not what I'm hoping for. I open the door to the attic. I'm shocked, the smell, it's overwhelming.…
There's a pale girl in front of me. I don't know who she is but for some reason, I recognize her. She's beautiful. Then I wake up. It feels as if I had eaten barb wire. Must have caught a cold. I notice that I'm laying in the sofa. Thomas…
I wake up completely soaked in sweat. Not because I had a bad dream or anything. It's just who I am. Monday, again. I get out of bed and start doing all the things I do every morning and probably will continue doing for the rest of my une…
The one who makes your blood rush, he who said he will love you till the seas run dry and the stars fall down, but time after time leaves you crying in the rain? Or the one that will try to give you everything you've ever wanted, but with h…
Nothing but a constantly expanding black hole turning everything I touch into dark matter. Eventually, slowly, it will destroy my entire being. Though I have no one to blame but me. It is my creation, my monster.
I run so fast objects and views I pass become nothing but meaningless blurs. Blurs that disappear from my memory the second I see them. What I don't know is that without these, what to me seems like blurs without meaning, the entire experie…
I love standing in the rain. We used to love the rain. I used to look into your emerald green eyes without saying a word, as the sound of thousand glass drops, being scattered against the pavement, went on in the background. You would hear …
Search for the good in all people that cross your path and you will start to see beauty in the simplest of things.
First comes the peacefulness amongst the chaos. Then comes the boom.
Let's go somewhere completely silent and watch the reflection of the moon on the still water. Let's go somewhere, together. We could, I don't know, climb a tree. We could escape, be whoever we want to be. I don't really care where we go or …
Screaming. Screaming in a room full of people. No one can hear me. No one can see me. See the real me. I am not invisible anymore. I don't exist.
The sound of raindrops on an empty road reminds me. Of how much i miss you How it felt to kiss you in the summer rain The orange sky reminds me. Of how I held you and whispered in your ear the three small words you were longing to hear.
They say that choice is the key to freedom. Give a man choice and he will only be paralyzed, not free.
I'm a bird with no wings. I'm unable to see the things that I could see. But I still believe that one day I'll grow some wings and I will se all of the things that I could see. I will be free.
There was once this girl who thought she knew it all. She had everything, she couldn't see it coming, couldn't see the fall. She became lonely, went from high to low. One thing she learned. In loneliness we grow.