Lie With Me

I know that feeling
What it feels like to walk around blind
To want something so badly I can taste it
To stop everywhere at any time because I can't stop thinking about the way the hair curls on your chest
The way the corner of your mouth twitches when you're conflicted
The smile that shines from your eyes when you're staring at me

I can relate to you
Wanderer
Roaming free.
Too stubborn to be let down by broken possibility viewed as your probability
Too independent to need an invasion of mind or space
Too driven, no time at all to waste.
We don't beat around the bush.
I can relate to you.

Still there are times
When even though I yearn to be free
I can still feel your arm around my neck
Standing right beside me talking to your friend about some inane thing while I looked on giddily

There are moments when I walk backwards through time
Rain crashing down on the street
Running to your door because I know
inside it's warm and you always open up for me.
I walk backwards into the nights we read together and played games that seemed endless and mindless and pointless
Turned over in your bed to find you staring at me laughing because "I don't snore"..

I remember that.

I remember golden sunlight streaming through the blinds
Minutes before we were due for brunch with your parents
That dim sum heartache
Where I was
Where I am
Where I wanna be

And sometimes;
Just sometimes
I throw caution to the wind and let my mind linger.
I think about how - consequence or not
I just want you lie with me.

But we all don't get what we want.

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