5 October 2012
We started out just playing a word game, then it was two different word games, then two word games and a jewels game, in each game we were talking through the chat functions. The chat was flowing with no worry about offending each other and no boundaries about what was spoken. Each chat was treated as a separate conversation and we were never stuck for words. We would find ourselves playing games for hours on end and time just evaporated. At this time I knew she had a long term boyfriend so I didn't for a second think about making a move.
I had no experience whatsoever with talking to women, so differentiating between banter and flirting was not my strong point. I remember mentioning as part of a joke how I talked to pixies in my head and they fill my dreams, then she used the pixie as a reference to herself like a third person ("your pixie enjoyed talking to you today") and I started to believe that something more than talk was happening.
Her brother invited me back to her flat because her boyfriend was away and she was alone and bored, he was completely oblivious to our situation. I declined the situation thinking we would both be put in an awkward situation as she didn't ask me to come over, but then she told me that it was her idea so the next day I went over with her brother to watch football....she was lying on the sofa with her back to the door as we walked in, as soon as she stood up I remember thinking "this girl is way out of my league" and then I saw the view from the flat of the bridge and river and the football ground to the left, then I saw the photos of her and her boyfriend and I started thinking maybe I had just imagined the flirting. That whole night I didn't look her in the eye at all, I didn't dare. I made my excuse and left and when I got home I found a message on my iPod..."your pixie enjoyed the time she spent with you tonight xxx" that made my whole body feel warm and I smiled so much it actually hurt.
The First Time Ever I Saw Her Face • Opuss № I