Haunting

Falling down; how did it go so wrong; broken crown; fell off my throne; its gone; one minute Im king of the world; the next Im being thrown around like a pawn; I used to lay awak at night; hoping praying I'd avoid a fight; coping saying that you were right; admitting that you were strong; you had all the might; I was wrong;that it was my fault; that missed call; that I had ritually dropped the ball; but you chose to pepper my wounds with salt; and this pain would never come to a halt

The guilt I felt filled my chest; it was like my soul was under arrest; the pain took its toll; my endurance was put to the test; but I had your assurance that I would be at my best; and in that I had faith; I could sit back and rest; but you were wrong; I sat there like a wraith; all the pain inside felt like cianide creeping through my viens; felt like I had died like venom was seeping into my brains; you called it suicide the way I died but you never knew my pains; it was you who lied when you did decide that you would hide the bloodied stains; it was curtains for me the second you pulled the drapes; over the window and now youre a widow for all your age; ink spilt all over you as you turn a new page on this stage; run to the sink and try wash off that red stain; better for you to know that it was me who had death feigned; I was at the hearing the moment you were arraigned; I saw your eyes tearing so much like it had rained; I saw you lies clearing like you had felt my pain; but Im no fool I wasnt gonna fall for it again; let you tell me we were close and push me out to my end; this is the life I chose and I watched as you anger rose cuz you couldnt defend; yourself over why it is I had to die; you collapsed and started to cry; you relapsed to the night that you started a fight; a month has elapsed and I lay here rest in peace; more like the best deceased; more like the threats increased as the evidence piled up; it was evident that you had gotten riled up; it all became relevant when the prosecutor held your files up; but no, how, how could it be; you hid all knives so that no one could see; but they dont need it all they needed was me; i told them about you pill adiction; I sold them information over your killing suspicion; and when you found out that it was me ; your closest friend; ypu had no choice but to put my life to an end; raised that knife above your head just as I raised my voice; and brought it down upon me as you struck me dead; I drowned then and there as I heard your voice fade away; and just when that occured my vision blurred and you hid that blade away;