The Oldest

How did I become the fuck up kid. How the oldest seem to be the worst one. Do I yarn for attention so bad I can't do anything right. Or do I like this life. Do I like the fact that I got more years on my RECORD than time in SCHOOL. Sometime I just laugh I think it's funny to go to JAIL for going up side that bitch face that thought she was being cute LIKING all my man pictures on FACEBOOK or that five finger discount on that new fit. Haha yea it's funny alright as a seat in a cold cell picking up the pay phone saying mama mama I'm sorry please get me out I promise this will be my LAST TIME. Last time yep last time alright 3 school in 4 years no credits just there longer enough to cash a student aid and bounce. Bounce yes bounce is what the LANDLADY said when I couldn't pay my rent cause I was TOO TURNT up at the CLUB shaking my ass on the stage, on the dance floor, in the mirror in the bathroom after we took our PICTURES. Yea I was to cute something like a BAD BITCH he say I LOOK LIKE A BAG OF MONEY. He want to take me home cuz he want my VICKY without the secret. I say cool cuz the dreams he selling me in my ear right now as I slow grind to DANCE FOR YOU is better than waking up in my mother house every morning as she yell how you the oldest child but you still in my HOUSE!!!!