Can't Even Remember Why

It's been 44 hours and everything has changed. Just 44 hours and what we had we don't have, what we were we are no longer.

And the worst part is that I can't even remember why. Now the conversations are awkward, the laughs aren't the same. Your smile is different, I know it hides the truth. I don't even remember why I thought ending it would be worth all of this.

And I think I regret it. I think I want us back. Because I realize that nothing is better without you, in fact nothing is anything without you. I can't think straight because I didn't realize how much of my thoughts you occupied, and how much I really need you.

Now I'm scared you won't forgive me. I screwed up really bad. I won't blame you if you don't want me back but I promise ill appreciate you if you do. How can I expect you to do that? I can't even explain to you why. I'm not begging but I want you to know I'm sorry.