Heartbreak

sammielee46 • 469 followers

WARNING... SWEARY WORDS!!!

Why does my heart feel like its breaking?
Into a million little pieces almost creating,
A scatter of confetti all over the floor,
People stomping all over it hurting me even more,
Love is not reciprocated,
Love is so damn complicated,
Mental abuse,
Sorry put to use,
A million times over and over again,
Kiss me in the rain,
Wash away my insecurities,
About the way I think you feel about me,
Shower me with kisses,
Instead of the million disses,
That you hurt me with every single day and minute,
I wish it was easier to say we're finished,
I love you but sometimes it's not enough,
Maybe I don't deserve the nice stuff,
I try and do the best for you,
Pick you up when your feeling blue,
Look after you when you are sick,
Even though to me your a fucking prick,
My biggest crime in life,
Is trying to be your doting wife,
When your so miserable despite all I do,
To show you every day that I love you,
You are so blind and selfish that you really can't see,
That all I need is for you to show you love me.

#emotional-pain #general #marriage-struggles #self-worth #toxic-relationship #unrequited-love

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gazplend

Nov 13, 2012 at 8:23 PM

Omg Sam! Is this true? Very good write though 😥😘

sammielee46

Nov 13, 2012 at 8:29 PM

@gazplend yup it is, thanks for the like and comment. :)

gazplend

Nov 13, 2012 at 8:35 PM

@sammielee46 aw you poor thing,hope your ok and you know where I am 😥💐

sammielee46

Nov 13, 2012 at 8:38 PM

@gazplend thank you that means a lot, it really does! Ill be fine, I just keep quiet and write!! :) my sanity :)

gazplend

Nov 13, 2012 at 8:39 PM

@sammielee46 yes I know exactly what you mean,I do the same 😘💐

sammielee46

Nov 13, 2012 at 8:40 PM

@gazplend definitely helps :)) the power of words on paper (or opuss) is amazing!! :D keeps me from dwelling on the inevitable :))

gazplend

Nov 13, 2012 at 8:44 PM

Exactly the same here,the inevitable here is getting closer every day but writing helps a lot 😘

sammielee46

Nov 13, 2012 at 8:46 PM

@gazplend that's awful :( but god don't I know it! Gotta find my inner strength first, I know it's in here somewhere :)

gazplend

Nov 13, 2012 at 8:48 PM

@sammielee46 if you find it you can help me find mine! 😥

sammielee46

Nov 13, 2012 at 8:50 PM

@gazplend definitely, surely there's a map or something??

gazplend

Nov 13, 2012 at 8:55 PM

@sammielee46 yes I think it's on Tom Tom sat nav too! Number 1 strength street,brave town,confidentshire! 😊

sammielee46

Nov 13, 2012 at 8:57 PM

@gazplend shit I don't think ill get there anytime soon :-/

sammielee46

Nov 13, 2012 at 8:59 PM

Thanks Hun for the like @sjw :)

sjw

Nov 13, 2012 at 9:00 PM

Really sorry to read this it's a very emotive piece he doesn't sound like he deserves you! (((hugs))) 😓

sammielee46

Nov 13, 2012 at 9:03 PM

@sjw thanks honey, it makes me feel like its me or something. I know I'm nothing special but surely I deserve a little thought now and again. I dunno I'll live :)) thanks Hun xx

gazplend

Nov 13, 2012 at 9:11 PM

@sammielee46 yeh you will Sam trust me 😘

sjw

Nov 13, 2012 at 9:12 PM

It's probably not you and don't put yourself down! He's probably one of those guys that is like that whoever he's with sorry I don't mean to put him down but I have a close friend whose just come out of a physically and emotionally abusive relationship thinking it was all her fault when he was the one that didn't deserve her 😡

sammielee46

Nov 13, 2012 at 9:31 PM

@sjw I suppose you are right Hun, I just need to learn to believe that. I've spent a very long time believing the opposite though, so I know it'll take time, I've just expected things to change every time the words sorrys used things are good for a few days and then go back exactly how they were. Just completely sucky. Thank god I've got the kids :))