25 April 2012
***How I feel today***
I feel soooo lonely. I work at home, live with a family, looking after the kids, cooking, etc... So while the parents are working and the children are in the school, I'm alone here in this big house. I'm the last person who'd feel loneliness, really... I love being alone and read a good book or watch a movie, but too much is too much! And we're living in a village, so here's really nowhere to go daytime. Or evening-time... And this weather is so depressing as well, isn't it? Can't I get a bit of sunshine this year, before I go to the other side of the world and find myself in the middle of the winter? My boyfriend left country nearly three months ago and I have still four weeks to go after him to New-Zealand... My friends can come over for weekends or I can go, but on the weekdays, I'm so desperate for some kind of conversations, and when I try to talk about something it can turn out so weird! Today I didn't want to play or tactic for a chat, I've just told the mom, I feel lonely. She asked me if I'd need chocolate, and went to organise things for tomorrow. That's not what I expected, to be honest. I'd need a hug, or hundreds of hugs... I think I'll cry myself to sleep tonight, and tomorrow will be much better! Well, I hope...
Together Alone • Opuss № I