Rueful Games?

I fell to my knees
Bowed my head
Offered up my wrists
Closed my eyes to the red

I'm not even finished or done yet
But too many mornings are in regret
Familiar faces around me last night
Now im just blinded at their sight

I feel a nice breeze
Blowing my head
Awful in my seeds
Chose my lies to the bed

Some games are played in two halfs
Chaos predicts unsuitable laughs
The loser soaks it up in the bath
The winner showers in glories past

I fill in a please
Bowling my head
Rueful in sleeze
Closed my eyes instead

For the glory and in love
Live a little and learn enough
Without a game and sword in hand
A feather sinks in quick sand

A swirling wind blows here again
Torn apart a heart of a friend
A tsunami of tears floods the ears
Of those seeking games of fears

I'm full of dares
Bowing your head
Meanful in cheers
Crossed my t's and I's I've dotted

I play the game and feel no shame
Say my name and feel no blame
I'll take it all again and again
Rueful games in fears insane?