When I look back on my life, I consider it something I would love to live through again, something that I wish I could restart, that is if I could restart. Change everything right from the beginning. Thinking about it there would be a lot of things that I would change, whether it is something small or something big. The terrible mistakes I have made so far are worth changing and for other peoples sake I wish to change my life for the better and make my family and myself proud of who I am and what I am-in the future-going to become.
So far in my life there have been defining moments in which I have not been too fond of what I have done or even haven't done. Whatever I try to do I seem to mess up, even though my goal is never to hurt the person, but no matter how hard I try things seem to go wrong. Living in the house of a person that has higher expectations of you than expected can make you self conscious of yourself and make you want to be and portray being perfect and exactly how they want you. But sometimes, just sometimes...you have to go beyond what they think of you and be what you want to be, not just what they want.
But then again compared to all the bad things that seem to occur in my life, there are also moments in which I wish nothing would change at all and that my life would stay exactly how it is no matter what.
There are certain people in my life that I can't help but wish for, I can't help but wish for them to stay and never leave me, there is one particular person that I wish this for, and that is Mason. I have had a crush on this boy since kindergarten and it hasn't gone since. Words just can't describe how much this boy means to me.
Every time I see his blue eyes glint in the light I just lose my breath, and every time I try to look away I can't, because I am too caught up in him and for me-and many other girls-it's hard to get away from him, no matter how much we try.
Just half of chapter one, I've written three chapters so far, like if you think I should continue <3
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