Maudlin Self Pity Song

I am cocooned in a tenuously familiar space.
Only slightly less alien in this alien place.
The rain pounds fists on the windows, the loudest I've known.
The streets are rivers outside my almost-home.
Far from me, far out of sight,
My friends and loved ones are together tonight.
My love's eyes are sparkling where I cannot see,
And I want to, so, so desperately.
To be slipping my hand into his whilst he smiles.
Centimetres between us, not thousands of miles.
To listen to the hum of people who all know my name and face,
To know I am in the exact perfect place,
With laughter and music filling the air.
But yet here I sit in silence; I cannot share.
The thought brings with it a stab of pain.
No company for me but the hammering rain.