31 December 2012
This is for you Shane..
Before i go. I just want you to know. That i can see that your busy. Because when i first started talking to you again i could just tell. Even though im not doing anything in my life right now. You wouldn't still be here if it weren't for me. I can remember now when i saved you from drowning. I remember that i ran and jumped into the freezing cold water. I remembered swimming down the rivers current and pulling you out of the water. My hair was in my face. I couldn't really see. When we reached the surface you said you can now stop tugging on me. All i knew was i had to save somebody. You wouldn't be dating Seth if it weren't for me. Because when i came back to life i realized i had to stop thinking that everything was all about me. I have left you in the past. No one could even tell. I knew you felt alone. I knew you were feeling down. I never had anything to say. It makes my heart drown. I will burn the past to pieces. I can now see that i have been forgiven way too much. I didn't mean to stop talking to you. For just because. I can't remember why. I can't remember when. I think i was drinking. I will leave you alone if you ever want to talk again. You are my angel and i am your devil. I think we should stick together. So then life will be more leveled. I wished we didnt stop talking. Before i left. We could have been dating. Because my ex threw me out the door. Because he was a hollywood whore. I just want you to know that i will always be there for you. just like i always have been. Even if we fell apart and stopped talking again.
Lost in the past. • Opuss № I