7 June 2012
3rd Janurary 2000 4:12pm
The bitterness of the snow embraced my ankles giving me the feeling of numbness. I pulled tighter on my burgundy scarf, tucking my hair in. Bits were left blowing in the wind but I couldn't release my hands from the depth of my pockets. I really need a cigarette, but I don't think I could bother taking them out. Screw it, I'd have one. I rummaged through my bag, searching for the box; head inside the darkness of my bag. Thump- a man. I scrambled around and looked up to find a young man, mid twenties. Blonde but with a hint of brown. Made it look dirty. His face stubbled. But his eyes. Clear grey. We stood. Staring at eachother. " S-sorry " I mumbled. He chuckled, " seriously it's fine, I knocked into you". A small smile appeared on his face. My heart fluttered. I could feel my blood rising and flushing in my cheeks that were white from the ice outside. As I breathed white mist came out and rose in the air, but it was taken away when he said, " Do I know you from somewhere?" Shocked I replied, " Not that I know of ". " Hm. Well I'd like to". We both smiled. I felt like a teenager again. Giggles and girlyness.
15th October 2006 3:28pm
I was driving like a maniac. I didn't care that there had just been an accident. I needed to get to Danny. Tears poured down my face like on an April showers day. My eyes; puffy and sore. I saw the hospital sign in front of me. Found a parking slot and flew out of the car. I was running. Through the sliding doors and into A&E. My hands slapped on reception. " I need some news". My speech was out of breath in short chunks." Wheres Dann-Daniel Fisher?" The receptionist stared with a blank look on her face. Emotionless. " What is the emergency?" she spoke slow but harshly. " He's my boyfriend and just been involved in a 7 car accident! If someone doesn't get me to him soon I will find him myself!" my voice stern. After a while of sitting in the waiting room with a cup of coffee to relax my nerves, people started to arrive. Demanding people's names, exactly like I did. As I sat there dazing about my environment I found myself recalling Danny and I's first date.
- we had agreed to meet in a local bar. Small, dark yet lively. I walked in a fashionable 5 minuets late. I saw him, sitting slouched in a booth with a larger in his hand. Wearing a jacket, jeans and a shirt. Smart but also casual. I took a breath in. I approached the table and my fingertips caressed the polished table. " Hello Mr Fisher " I said smirking. " Hello Miss Close " I sat down, and we both sat for hours reminiscing over high school, memories and family. We both connected. Electricity ran through me. I had never had anything like this before. Danny confessed- " Somethings just clicked. With you I'm well.. Just me. You make me feel so calm, yet alive". His eyes lit up, sparkled and somehow I knew he meant it. From one look I know that whatever chemistry was happening it was happening fast. I couldn't control myself. We had just seemed to have fit together. An unstoppable force. -
I snapped out of the dream when I nurse came up to me. " Miss Close..?"
And thats where I knew that a part of me had died.
Two Years Part IV • Opuss № I