Forever Peaceful

I am alone in my mind with my screaming thoughts. Friends of
mine are with me, but I am still alone. I cannot escape from the from the giant mass of thoughts falling into my mind causing my emotional stability so much pressure. There is nowhere to run. I just want my thoughts to be forever peaceful.

I try to run away from what only seems to be ever chasing thoughts. They don’t leave me alone, but they leave me with constant fear of loneliness. Slowly the world darkens and the thoughts halt. Instead of
screaming, they chant "you will always fail, no one will ever love you,
you will be forever alone!" I just want it the thoughts to turn forever peaceful.

I sit on the window sill looking down upon cars speeding by, daring myself to run out in front of them. I want to run down the stairs so quickly I almost float. I want to swing my door open and slam it closed with my
hands. I want to run, run until I am in the road. The noises of the cars are the key to forever peace. One hit, one screech, one bang, the end... forever
peaceful.